Monday, November 30

Nutrition: HUNGRY today. Ate all my snacks and was out of food mid-afternoon before my run, so I was hungry that whole time, too. Guess how delightful I was when I finally got home!
  • Larabars: 2

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 930p-5a, 85% quality. Hanky began dancing at 430a, like a jackass.

Healthy Movement: Body feels good, but do have a weird tightness in right upper arm. Come on! Run went well, fast & easy, and so playful in the quiet, snowy beauty. Shivering miserable mess by the time I got home, and joints were already feeling poorly that quickly. I made sure to eat my salad, despite wanting a hot grilled cheeze, knowing the nutrition of those veggies is likely to prevent continuing to feel junky tomorrow. I'm getting wiser in my ripe old age.

Fun & Play: Hubs time in the morning! Productivity at DBB. Some FB silliness. Chitchat with my running besties, and then actually running with all of them in the wintery beauty! Hearing good great news for two of them. A fast-for-me run. Hankypank silliness and Clyde cuddles.

Sunday, November 29

Nutrition: Steadily hungry today. A result of holiday overeating, or a result of much lifting and not enough sleeping? Or all of the above?
  • Trav's breakfast 
  • Bag olive oil potato chips
  • pint AZ

Sleep: 5.75 hours in bed, 1230a-615a, 56% quality. Was solid, quality is low because quantity is a giant WTF.

Healthy Movement: Body still feeling good. Warm-up for workout felt pretty good, and most things were good, though nothing super stellar. Core is mostly good; left knee is practically nil.

Fun & Play: Able to load the mini-fridge into back of pickup all by myself, NO ISSUES. Fuck yeah, being strong is the bessst! Breakfast with my BB & GP. Lifting w/ Hankypank as my useless but adorable spotter. Hubs time. Mini-adventure with Hanky; had to go to NSS a second time, so I brought him along and played chase all across the turf a few times, with which he was THRILLED. Reading time. Plotting a running date in the soon-to-be snow w/ BK & HH.

Saturday, November 28

Nutrition:
  • Buncha roasted salted cashews
  • Buncha cheap bacon [wrapped around water chestnuts]

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 10p-615a, 96% quality. Solid. Low-ish energy in afternoon, lazed about on couch for most of it.

Healthy Movement: Body feels much better than yesterday. Not even any left knee pain! Felt pretty good in warm-up, but workout itself felt rather blah; one of those where everything was harder than it should've been. Later in afternoon, left shoulder was a bit bothersome. 

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Reading (finished a book I started yesterday!). Hoppe family fun. Laziness. Schloegl family fun, much screaming laughter. Stayed up past midnight, whaaaat!

Friday, November 27

Nutrition:
  • 1 Larabar
  • Breakfast at AJ's

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 830p-515a, 87% quality. Also napped in afternoon, 2 hours, 145-345p. I was shot, and continued to be afterward.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling good, run was pretty much awesome, easy-ish - but then I felt like absolute hell the rest of the day. Tired and aching absolutely everywhere, including the right core, yipe. 

Fun & Play: Breakfast with MK. Talking with AS. Running with pals in gorgeous, crisp, sunny woods. Nap time. Reading time (hours and hours!). Silent house. 

Thursday, November 26

Nutrition:
  • 2 pieces cheezecake
  • Buuuunch of roasted salted cashews

Sleep: 9 hours in bed, 9p-6a, 97% quality.

Healthy Movement: Tight upper back from deadlifts and strict pulls, deliciously so. No other aches from the 300# deadlift! Still have left knee pain, but vague. Rest day.

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Brain back on straight so that I volunteered at the Y's 5k, and with the hubs joining me. Seeing my runner friends. Family. Food. Cards. Silliness. Puppy dogs. My favorite holiday, yo.

Wednesday, November 25

Nutrition:
  • 1 Larabar
  • 2 pieces cheezecake
  • 2 GF English muffin

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 930p-5a, 85% quality.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling awesome, left knee even a little better over yesterday. Deadlifts felt magically light, so Dustin let me jump up to 300 motherfucking pounds, yo! BADASS. Now, time to get back to the straight bar for technique, technique, technique. Pulls still hard today, what gives? I haven't had THAT many birthday treats!

Fun & Play: NSS peeps. Leftover birthday treats. Session, with my favorites, and huge weights. Chitchat with my BB. Hubs time. Silly pets. Reading.

Stress Management: Discovered a fuck-up at work that will cost me $300, unless boss boys make an exception to their policy around this kind of fuck-up, which I neither expect nor even want. Mostly, I am upset because I feel it will disappoint them. Like when you fucked up in high school and your parents were disappointed, and that was SO MUCH WORSE than the two weeks of grounding. Ugh. 

This left me very tired and decidedly uncharitable by the end of the day, so much that I was considering not volunteering at the Y's 5k tomorrow, not wanting to see my friends, not wanting to do the very thing that refills my bucket so clearly. Went to bed hoping a night of sleep would change me.

Tuesday, November 24

Nutrition: Probably Definitely far too much birthday sugar.
  • 1 Larabar
  • 2 pieces cheezecake
  • GF English muffin
  • Qdoba
  • Pint AZ

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 845p-515a, 84% quality.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling great other than left knee. Disappointing pulls in session, but everything else was consistently good.

Fun & Play: NSS! Birthday fun! Tons of fabulous messages, lovely treats, many hugs, Amazon delivery, take-out with the hubs, chore-avoidance. Even the pets let me sleep in!

Temperance: Expanded job possibility at NSS that feels scary & overwhelming, fearing it will put me into a place of failure, doing a thing I feel that I'm not good enough to do. But if the boss boys believe in me, if they believe I can learn the things that I don't know, then shouldn't I continue to trust their thus-far-impeccable judgment? I need far more confidence, far less self-doubt.

Monday, November 23

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Sugared nuts on a salad (out to eat)
  • Pint AZ

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 915p-545a, 100% quality.

Healthy Movement: Feel great, no issues after Sunday lifting. Left knee pain is a bit better but still there. No one to run with, worked late, went home and did swings & snatches instead.

Fun & Play: At a client's, cleaning up a giant QB mess, yay! [Free] lunch with the parents for my birthday. Birthday treats at DBB. Hubs time, watching a movie.

Sunday, November 22

Nutrition
  • GF English muffin 
  • a LOT of cashews
  • Pint AZ

Sleep: 9 hours in bed, 830p-530a, 100% quality. That's a little optimistic, but it was pretty solid. Attempted to nap, but Hank was determined to keep it short, 1-2p.

Healthy Movement: Body feels surprisingly good after yesterday's run plus all-day butchering. Tight upper back from butchering, but lower body feels fine. Wow! Do still have the sharp left knee pain on SL moves. Lifted at NSS with Paige, and it went well. Nothing too exceptional, other than deadlifts were again all good, and I managed to do snatches without wristbands and they still felt fine. Yay!

Fun & Play: Chores knocked out early. Big Amazon order, to be delivered on my birthday: three books, two bags o' nuts, one shiny new Garmin! Lifting fun with Paige. Reading, for hours, with pets snuggled up tight. 

Saturday, November 21

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • bag olive oil potato chips
  • GF English muffin

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 930p-5a, 84% quality. In late due to hubs, woken at 4a by dogs, dozed it out until I couldn't. Very tired by 7p.

Healthy Movement: Run felt pretty damn great on the legs, although lungs were constantly asking for walkable hills. Plenty of physical labor afterward, butchering hogs, totally drained by the time I got home.

Fun & Play: Slow-moving morning. Quick dose of hubs time. Easy run. On trails. In my second home. With most of my besties. Without pain. Adventures in hog butchering at the parents', lotsa family, thrilled pooches, hilarity with chitlins, coolers o' deliciousness, all for $67 + a day of labor. Silent house waiting for me & the exhausted pooches. Unexpected dose of hubs time.

Friday, November 20

Nutrition
2 Larabars
Pint AZ

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 915p-445a, 88% quality. I would really enjoy sleeping until my 530a alarm one of these days. 

Healthy Movement: Body feels great; some tightness in upper back only, despite 285# deadlifts!

Fun & Play: Caribou (twice). NSS day. In-service full of great information, even for me to apply to my own life. Downtime with my NSS peeps. Plotting a Sunday lifting date. Hubs time, including a movie, before he again heads off to a pumping job...one that'll keep him gone over my birthday. :(

Wednesday, November 18

Nutrition: I returned to taking cod liver oil supplements today. Had run out and decided to see if I noticed anything (not really), but eye doctor told me fish oil would be good for my eyes. Changes the viscosity of your tears, prevent build-up on the contacts. I don't like gummy contacts, or any risk to eye health, so: sold!
  • 2 Larabars
  • Pint AZ

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 85% quality. Sound, woken by alarm.

Healthy Movement: Lower legs feel much better getting out of bed compared to yesterday. Still, a little all-over gunk in the system, no run tonight. I planned on working swings & snatches, but by the time I got home, I literally forgot all about it. Genius. Super smart me.

Fun & Play: Dentist. (Dentist? Fun? Yep! Mine is, anyway.) FB silliness. Gremlins movie!

Thursday, November 19

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Cherry pork jerky (lotta sugar)

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 845p-430a, 90% quality. Stupid-early dogs again. 

Healthy Movement: Body feeling better, left knee still a bit crank. Session was a fair showing, and after I got up to 70 total pulls for the day (all strict, BTW), I did some flexed arm hang work: GROSS.

Fun & Play: NSS. Session with MR. Fun workload. Errands knocked out. Jeans challenge partying. 

Tuesday, November 17

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 98% quality. The whole house slept in: yay!

Healthy Movement: Body is junky, hips down. Muscles just somewhat sore, but lower legs quite crank about running, and everything just feels like there is sand in my oil, y'know? Session was only so-so: pulls a touch backward, squats used every crank joint, etc. First two sets of bench felt like a new move, second two sets went much better. BK canceled on tomorrow's run, and that made me seriously think about whether I should run or not. I keep saying I want to focus on lifting this winter, yet I keep thinking I should be able to run my LCSP loop 3x a week as well...and that may be too much for this body. You can imagine how I feel about that.

Fun & Play: NSS day! Fun little projects, including a massive pull of data for Chief to use for budgeting/planning. Impressed the shit out of him with how quickly I got it. It's what I do, yo! Session, with Timmy. GP chitchat. Two annoying little errands knocked out. Hubs home. Doting pets.

Monday, November 16

Nutrition:
  • Larabars: 2

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 915p-515a, 84% quality. Some tossing/turning 4a onward, notably feeling tightness in the QLs, both sides - felt that yesterday morning as well. Happily, the alarm finally woke me, not the Hanky.

Healthy Movement: Been forgetting to mention the left foot bruise that seemed to be from deadlifts did not return last week - guess I just needed to get heavy enough! Again lower legs were quite crank first thing out of bed, even some limping to avoid a pain on front of left ankle. Better with movement, but worth watching. Feeling some other typical "long run" pains, like left knee on stairs - but I'm not even doing long runs! Gah. Over here on the bright side of aches: my glutes are a bit sore from yesterday's lifting. Hello, deadlifts and pistols...YESSS! Met HH & DQ for an LCSP-ing adventure in what I thought would be chilly, damp, yuck conditions. Not chilly, only a little damp, and NO yuck! Pure delight. Certainly my feet would disagree, as they are reacting strongly to the roots and uneven ground, but they'll adapt...right?

Fun & Play: Quiet, easy morning, with dogs that slept in. Good, long, involved project at DBB.A run in the woods with most of my besties and no pain. YESSS! Text silliness. Cute Clyde snuggles.

Sunday, November 15

Nutrition: THIRD BREAKFAST (#winning). Face is still not cleared up from a couple days ago, and then I went and added a fair dose of sugar today: I am so dumb.
  • Trav's
  • Pint AZ (Buttery Pecan = addictive)
  • Extra sugar via Honey&SB&J French toast

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 845p-530a, 96% quality. Tossing/turning 430a onward.

Healthy Movement: Body felt decent, some lower-leg aches first thing outta bed due to the running. (Le sigh.) Had a fair lifting session. Did DD's biofeedback testing on things and some were poor (like bench, which lined up precisely with how it felt, so I changed after two junky sets), while some were great (deadlift, making zero sense since the left hamstring was acting up).

Plotted out some TSC training ideas, and then got into tax season training, and I have no idea how I'm going to run. I think it will have to be on my NSS days, because I just can't see myself working 10 hours at the tax firm and still having energy to go LCSP-ing. Although I did it at TS so who knows. If my besties are out there, I guess I'll find the energy somehow; and when they're not, I think that I'll go home and swing/snatch instead.

Fun & Play: Slow morning. Hubs pretty much back to normal (though I'm wary). Deadlifting. Lunch w/ Holea. Fetch & a chore out in the sunshine, followed by reading and soaking it UP for probably the very last time in like 6 months: le sigh. Caught up on training documentation and realized I need less tracking than I used to need...letting go (somewhat) of the need to define myself by my accomplishments.

Saturday, November 14

Nutrition:
  • pint AZ

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 845p-530a, 86% quality. Dogs out at 430a, went back to bed, dozed. Alarm was set for ROUS outing. Attempted a nap at noon, gave up at 1p.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling surprisingly good, thought I'd be flooded with stress after-effects. 6-mile run went really well, quite fast for a chick who was used to trail speeds before the injury downtime. Didn't go over my allowed miles, especially after Wednesday left some lingering tightness. Careful, careful, careful. Took a wondertastic stroll at LCSP with my BB & the pooches in the sunny afternoon, soaking up this final dose of fall.

Fun & Play: CaROUSing with DQ. Hubs time. Abundant sunshine. GP and BB and LCSP. Watching WW with hubs. (So many acronyms!)

Friday, November 13

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • bag olive oil potato chips

Acne: Bad. Not sure why.

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 830p-515a, 93% quality. Dogs up at 3a to go outside. WHY??

Healthy Movement: Rest day. Body feeling good, though I hit a wall about 230p: partly stress, partly brain drain.

Fun & Play: NSS day, always delightful. Fetch in the sunshine. Hubs time.

Stress Management: Husbandly freakout, like legitimately concerned/worried for his mental well-being. He has to quit his job, it's fucking him up and I want my husband back.

Thursday, November 12

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars 

Sleep: 9 hours in bed, 830p-530a, 98% quality. HA! Hubs & I both went to bed raw-tired, the kind where you have no energy to be kind or polite to anyone, and in fact the entire world can go fuck itself. Not because we were fighting or something, we were both just that tired. I tried the double-dose theory on the dogs, giving them twice their normal supper in the hopes they'd sleep in. HA! Hank was up at 3:30! Motherfucker! I let them both out, hit bathroom, water, half a Larabar, and let Lexi in. At that point, I would've been grateful if Hank ran away, so I went back to bed rather than wait, thinking I'd have time to fall back asleep before 5:30, for once. Hubs heard Hank scratching and let him in (I had fallen back asleep), and he was immediately whining again. WHY YOU ASSHOLE? Cats were then in/out, scratching the bed, kneading the blanket, etc, and I wanted to cry. I got up feeling like I had tried to sleep on the hard ground in 40F, like FUCK LIFE. UGH that's not how I like to start my day, with a paragraph-long sleep saga. Shitty.

Healthy Movement: Body felt some fatigue but session went great, was super dee duper fun with much silliness from both Dustin & Jeremy. I'm hoping I can deadlift 300 (trapbar, from blocks, blah blah blah, but STILL) before we move to the straight bar. Changed to strict pulls from the rings, and my elbows were a bit crank by the afternoon's end. Well, shit, that sucks.

Fun & Play: NSS. A decision on the software project that puts me back at the start but at least I can stop spinning my wheels with one that was full of tiny concessions that I desperately wanted to make work...but can't. Marketing task fun. Team photo silliness. GP & BB. Hubs chitchat with the old [rested] him that I like best. FB silliness. Clyde snuggles.

Wednesday, November 11

Nutrition:
  • Larabars:2
  • rice noodles

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 915p-445a, 94% quality. Dogs be jerkfaces. Fed them double this morning and this evening, will see if that makes a difference. PLEASE, something has to.

Healthy Movement: Tired. Sat most of the day at DBB. Ran with [most of] my besties and it was lovely. Few brief moments of core concern, but it always went away. Very hard to avoid the leftward slant, particularly at dusk, as everyone is getting off work. Want my trails back from the hunters, please!

Fun & Play: BK chitchat. DBB silliness. Running with some of my favoritest peeps. Silent house and the energy to smash a few chores.

Tuesday, November 10

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Emergen-C
  • Bag olive oil potato chips

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 830p-5a, 96% quality. Fine, but up at 430a onward. Seriously, my dog is just an asshole. Hubs got up and let them out, and then left, yet Hank pranced and whined just the same, needing me to get up (And do what? WTF do you need at 430am?!).

Healthy Movement: Once again, body felt great in warm-up, smooth machine, although session was only okay. Wait, I'm a dick: I had a total-rep PR in NG pulls, solid showing in heavy squats, but bench was disappointing. Damn that technical bench! Doesn't she know how I love & adore her? Why she always gotta play hard to get??

Fun & Play: At NSS with much progress made on a [very draining] project. Hugs & high fives from my hero GP. HH and CP chitchats; one plotting a run, the other feeling the same sadness regarding a pal, which made me feel like I'm not overreacting. Silent house. FB silliness. 

Monday, November 9

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
Sleep: 9 hours in bed, 830p-530a, 83% quality. Dogs up & active & noisy at 430a, and I wanted to throttle them. Got up after 10 minutes and let them out, then went back to bed, thinking I might be able to fall back, but Clyde prevented that. I at least stretched flat and rested, trying to catch up from the weekend. Also I had made the mattress harder, and I think I like it, though I'll need to get a full, proper, not-interrupted-by-asshole-dogs night or two before deciding.

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty good, though tired. Sad to have missed a lifting workout yesterday, but want to get back to my 3/week runs, and also not impact tomorrow's lifting. I was damned tired by 3pm, and not interested in running, but I forced myself out and got a whopping two miles. Hey, it's more than zero.

Fun & Play: Fun little project at DBB. FB silliness. Dad's bookwork. Gorgeous, warm evening. Hubs time. 

Temperance: Man, I just really wanna run with my friends. I miss them, I miss the woods, I miss the talk therapy, I miss the miles-deep trail love. 

Sunday, November 8

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • some chili pistachios

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 1030p-7a, 96% quality. Super hard bed, thought it would be awful, but I slept much better than expected, considering adjusting my own fancy mattress up a lot to see if it's better. Managed to sleep in, and it was lovely.

Healthy Movement: Visiting all day, long drive home, no time for lifting. Did log a nice little walk in the sunshine, at least. 4 hours sitting in car again, super ugh.

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Amy time, Maya time. Walking in the woods. Small-town WI meat locker shopping. Podcasting hilarity. Thrilled pets at my miraculous return home.

Temperance: So very hard to leave Amy, after the chitchat that cemented in just how much I love her and miss her. I so wish all my beloveds were still close by. Thinking a camping trip next summer should be in the close vicinity of the Subrt family's homestead. Fall trail racing season officially over: sad times. Last year ended on such an amazing high, full of BK's successes & so many wonderful new friendships & inside jokes & fun race memories. This year feels like it ended too abruptly (I should've stuck around Icebox to help clean-up, absorb just a little more of the atmosphere), after hearing disappointing stories of  some of my fave trail people acting like bullies, after so little time with BK in the past 6-ish months, compounded by the past couple months of desperately missing all of my TROUSers...painful. Wistful. A tough drive home, absorbing all the changes I wish weren't happening, and wishing for a magic wand.

Stress Management: Hubs still working basically 24/7, missing him, worrying about him.

Saturday, November 7

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Emergen-C

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 845p-430a, 72% quality. Took ages to fall asleep, and woke at 2a, 330a, 430a. UGH.

Healthy Movement: Lovely run, no pain, but a rather slow pace that felt much faster. Sitting in car driving for 4 hours = ugh, but only slight tightness in core. Stood for a good 4-5 hours at Icebox.

Fun & Play: A perfectly normal, perfect run with my girl Heidi. Chitchat with rest of ROUSers. Podcast delightfulness. Iceboxy trail running beloveds. Time with Amy, Phil, and their precious girl Maya.

Friday, November 6

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Emergen-C
  • Trav's

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 815p-430a, 89% quality. Fucking dogs up so goddamn early again, I was at work a half hour early because of those jerkfaces.

Healthy Movement: I am loathe to admit this, but the Emergen-C actually does seem to be helping, or else there is an amazing correlation in the stopped development of the cold I felt arriving a few days ago. Legs & back are properly achey from the week's lifting, and I do have a somewhat concerning (mild) pain in my left ankle since the run, but hoping a rest day is enough. Please don't resolve my core tendonitis just in time to produce an ankle problem, body, PLEASE NO. Feeling truly excited about keeping winter running low-key and just killing it with weights, but that doesn't mean I want to stop running - I wish to maintain 15-20 easy miles per week, please. How else I see my trail peeps?

Fun & Play: Time to read and ease into the day. At work early, quite productive, and yet SO MUCH fun had. Much silliness, including playing around with single-arm pulls & the like with CJ. Lunch with Timmy, a wonderful conversation about our respective struggles, zero solutions, but support & validation, which is just as important. Silly pet antics in the eve, along with snuggles from Clyde and the cold shoulder from Oscar after I accidentally locked him in the pantry. (Poor fellow, maybe this PERFECT LIFE YOU LEAD will make up for my mistake.)

Stress Management: Quick little BK convo to assess his mental state, which is, happily: Look the fuck out, competition! Good, makes my Saturday spent standing in the cold sound better. Hubs state is less positive, but I'm doing my best to not worry about that one, because it's so massive as to overwhelm, I just have to ostrich this thing until the situation changes. So far I'm letting it remain his problem to resolve, not mine, although it certainly becomes mine if he actually quits, but in the meantime: ostrich.

Nature: I really really hate the early dark. Almost all my lights are on to keep me from noticing. Not looking forward to the cold soon behind it.

Temperance: Despite my productivity, occasional early arrivals and late departures, I still have so much to do at NSS, that I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. My to-do list only grows, it seems, and I re-prioritize constantly. This afternoon Paige asked if I ever think of working there full time, and I was like DUUUUUHHHH that's my GOAL, GIRL! I am certain that I could be full-time busy, but I don't want to risk becoming a financial burden by us pulling that trigger too early. I spent three years being patient enough to make it where I am, I can't turn impatient with this in only three months! But it's hard not to be, because it is my tribe. Even brand-new guy is already a fan favorite. The work is perfect, the people are the bestest, and how can I not want to be there every day? Is bomb dig.

Thursday, November 5

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Emergen-C
  • half pint AZ

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 830p-515a, 91% quality. Heard the hubs come home, but slept until the alarm, no stupidly early dog shenanigans, hooray!

Healthy Movement: Body feeling sore from squats, a bit sore from the run, but movement felt gooood. Hit my 100 ring pull-ups, PRd on trapbar deadlifts and felt SUPER strong, literally went to bed dreaming about deadlifting 300 before I get back to the straight bar.

Fun & Play: NSS day, full of productivity, and fun. Declared Dustin the Deadlift KING, PR'd in my session and also swapped high levels of smart-assery with J, played wiffleball with the NSS team (shocking news: I'm terrible at it), gave GP two "pick up & swirl" hugs and received a high-five upon her RDL PR, and just plain had so much damned fun, I seriously shouldn't get paid for this. Quiet night at home. Fetch. Recovering from the mental drains of yesterday's boys' drama.

Wednesday, November 4

Nutrition: Having "Wanna eat my fists off" hunger/cravings today. At lunch I was very seriously considering going to the grocery store to see if they have my chips because I needed wanted something to gnaw on. I stayed put, yay me! Mostly husbandly stress, but also time-change tiredness. I did get chips in the eve, but only after putting my brain back on straight, so I only ate half a bag, yay me! And only half a pint of AZ, yay me x3!
  • 2 Larabars
  • smoked almonds
  • olive oil potato chips
  • grilled cheeze
  • half pint AZ 
  • Emergen-C x2

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 9p-445a, 90% quality. Took a while to fall asleep due to monkey mind. Up early due to dogs. Tired all damned day.

Healthy Movement: Cold is a little worse, though still not too bad. Don't know whether it's just coming on this slowly, or if perhaps the body is fighting it back that effectively? Hopefully the latter. Feeling the squats immediately in the morning, but didn't get too stiff; sat all day at DBB, might have helped. Ran four miles without pain. Like basically nothing. And stretched the bad spots (both sides) immediately afterward, and it was a marked improvement even from where they were this summer before the right one went to complete hell.

Somehow I forgot to mention yesterday: the entire body felt different in my warm-up, like everything was moving more easily, grooves were greased and smooth, WD40 had filled my joints; apparently I've been a little jacked-up all over (also: jacked all over, tee hee!) without fully realizing it. The improvement felt amazing. Healthy. Strong. Lovely.

Fun & Play: Chitchat with BK, Friday lunch plans made with LT, lazy "sittin' down day" at DBB. FB silliness. Running without pain on a gloriously warm November eve. BK letting me in, despite my worried expectation that he would shut me out. Silly pooches, bossy Oscar, and cuddles with Clyde.

Stress Management: Hubs who says he's quitting his job. Today. Now. No notice. WTF? This shit is not okay. I convinced him he needs to give a two-week notice and find a new job in the meantime, not allowed to be a loser who walks off jobs and burns bridges like that, but it pissed me off, like completely ruined my day. I wanted to simultaneously smash him to bits, eat my weight in potato chips, disappear down a deer path at LCSP, and curl up in bed with a blanket over my head. So frustrating, especially when it came just as I finally dug myself out of a deep hole of self-pity and started to feel good physically for the first time in so long. 

Oh, AND THEN one of the two people I turned to for help today (BK) received really shitty news. So then he also hit a major low today, and I tried to talk him off the ledge. (After doing the same with the hubs. Why my men so needy today? I can't carry them! I'm barely strong enough to carry me!) I gave him the option to cancel our run, but he kept it, which surprised me. In person, he was doing a little better than I expected. I delivered equal doses of hugs & swears. I tried to measure out some positivity, but it was hard to find much to say, because I don't feed him bullshit. A chickadee would've received so much Pollyanna positivity, but boys be different, and this one especially so. I gave him full support, though, and I suppose that's the best I could do.

Now I shall continue to worry about both of these boys and their tender hearts and heavy burdens, and yet I must not try to carry their burdens for them. My job is to give love and support, help encourage them in their own strength. I hope I can remember this.

Tuesday, November 3

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • Carrot muffin (sugary)
  • Emergen-C
  • rice noodles

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 815p-5a, 74% quality. To bed nice & early, but wide awake at 4a hearing noisy dogs. Hubs let them out, but they didn't NEED out, so this only prolongs the time adaptation; plus, I had to get up to let them back in. Ugh, damned time change.
 
Healthy Movement: Getting a cold and drinking Emergen-C even though I doubt it does anything. James put me on hold, gave clearance to keep progressing runs in my baby steps, thinks I'm basically healed but need to keep up the stretching and massaging (that...uhhh...I haven't even great at lately). Major difference in the tendon when he massaged it, basically didn't feel like anything was wrong. Hooray!!! Session
 had a pull-up PR, but that long-coveted #17 was ugly & debatable, so I don't feel like celebrating it. Squats went great but I could feel a bit of left hamstring on last few reps, and then it was tight mid-afternoon onward. Rest of body was okay.

Fun & Play: NSS: I love it so very much. It makes me so happy to be there. Every day, please! Super productive today, even worked late because I just wanted to Get Shit Done. Chitchat with GP & my BB, SM, BK, LT, all my beloveds. Good stuff. Quiet night at home. FB silliness.

Monday, November 2

Nutrition:
  • Larabars: 2

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 85% quality. Dogs noisy, but mostly I woke naturally about 430a. Damn time change. Pretty tired later in the day, feeling like nearly shower time at only 630p. Damn time change.

Healthy Movement: Some tightness in back from yesterday's workout, but not a concerning level. Rest day today; figure I had 4 full rest (from running) days between the successful 2- & 3-mile runs, so now let's do 3 days (so, Wednesday), then 2 days (Saturday), then HOPEFULLY back to my normal M/W/St schedule by next week if all goes well, and I can then step up the distance a little. Fingers all crossed. I could've done something when I got home, jump rope or whatevs, but the brain was so fried from work that I wanted nothing to do with such nonsense.

Fun & Play: Early start meant a slow start, which is my favorite. Hubs in the AM. Productivity at DBB, but it was mind-numbing data entry that basically made me want to curl in a ball, but it was better than sheer boredom. I plowed through my 8 hours, and then GTFO to catch a little sunlight and play fetch with my happy pooches.

Sunday, November 1

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars
  • pint AZ

Sleep: 11.25 (!!) hours in bed, 845p-7a (new time), 92% quality. I had the bed set too hard, so sleep was actually crappy, and the dogs needed out at 4a old time / 3a new time, plus I was strangely feeling h/s/g - so I hit the bathroom, drank a bunch of water, ate a Larabar, and was able to fall back asleep for another 4 hours! Got up feeling like a champion, yet a little on the dumb side: I reset the stove & microwave clocks for a minute earlier, not an hour...ha!!

Healthy Movement: Some tightness in the core after yesterday's run, but still tons better than the after-effects a couple weeks ago. As decided yesterday, I took today's lifting in a whole different direction, playing around with things to see just how far I would need to go for the IMC. It's pretty far, but since it's such a tough challenge, it feels appropriate to have a long way to go, thus it's not disappointing to be where I am. I like the idea of sticking with this on Sundays, think it will be good for the brain to have a change. Happy, happy discovery: the left hamstring feels fine, if a bit weak. I did all fashion of deadlifts (light, but still) without pain or weird feelings up in there. Hooraaaaaaay!

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Bills paid (and how easily, thanks to hubs' giant checks right now). Sunggly Clyde. Sunshine. Solid workout. Holea canceled on me (sick) which meant no need to leave home, woo hoo! Ample time for chores and reading and coloring. Fetch. Hubs home for much of the day before another jaunt down south.

Temperance: My first full weekend at home in a month was really really good for me. I am glad I managed to go to everything I did in October, because it was great fun - but, oof, it was rough not having the weekends to recharge, especially while stressed about the injury and missing my friends. Must not let myself get so over-scheduled. 

Saturday, October 31

Nutrition:
  • 1 Larabar
  • Jan's Place
  • Doolittle's

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 845p-5a, 92% quality. Solid, but needed alarm to get up early.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling good, and the run went awesome. First of all, the entire group looped back to "pick me up" halfway through - aww. It just plain felt good, although a bit fast, and I needed to run directly down the middle of the road to avoid a leftward slant. As we approached the turn that would make it 2 even miles, I made the call to extend it a bit, and I landed back at 3 miles with ZERO PAIN. I stretched best I could in the parking lot afterward, and again at NSS, but it did tighten up a wee bit later on, yet I only ever really felt it with a really jaunty hip, while wrestling my mattress to the garage. OH YEAH, another reason to be a strong-ass woman: so you can dismantle and relocate your king-sized bed all by yourself, no male help required. Fuck yeah!

Fun & Play: CaROUSing with my besties on a crisp, comfortable morning. Breakfast with the same group, packed to the gills with laughter. Then off to NSS to help out with the TSC, which made me uber-jealous, and wishing I had been able to participate (stupid injuries), and determined to do it next year, along with Paige. (And Dawn, I suspect.) It was awesome to watch the badassery, especially my beloved Chief, who claims to be "okay at everything but good at nothing" yet I'm pretty sure that he will land in the top 10, possibly even top 5, of this worldwide competition. Too damn cool! Had fun chitchatting with Shannon M, a wee badass about whom, every time I talk with her, I think "Why don't we hang out, like, all the time?" and yet we never do. We must. She is the same age, is afflicted with the same lifting addiction, has KBs and a power rack at her place, etc - by all rights, she belongs in my tribe! At home I knocked out a few chores in order to prepare the place for my NEW BED, the parents' cast-off Sleep Number bed (they made a serious upgrade), and it was GD gratifying to find I could move the old bed by my own badass self. Took the parents out for supper at my favorite place to pay for it, in a very small way. Enjoyed the heck out of all the costumed kids on FB, love seeing such cuteness without having to deal with my own doorbell ringing.

Temperance: Marveling at feeling the desire to compete again, for the first time in over a year. First Wild Duluth had me wanting another crack at the 50k, and now the TSC has me wanting to do that next fall, too. (Um, now that I write that, if the timing is the same, this might be a bit challenging to pull off.) I also have this strange urge to see if I can do the Iron Maiden Challenge. Best I can tell, it's actually only for SFG certified instructors, and I guess I don't care about that - but just to be able to do it, that would be pretty fucking badass, and that's the kind of thing I'm up for. Toying with the idea of programming myself for that on Sundays, to add me some variety, rather than just a full-on powerlifting mindset. I adore the powerlifts most, and I mean deeply & truly I love them, and honestly don't really desire to do anything but - yet I suspect my body requires more variety to prevent injuries. Working toward something concrete like this, which is a highly respected measure of holy-shit strength, might be a way to get my brain enjoying something other than squat, bench, & deads, brah. Will perhaps try it for tomorrow's workout and see what I think.

Friday, October 30

Nutrition:
  • 2 Larabars

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 915p-530a, 73% quality. Dogs dancing at 4a, WTF!

Healthy Movement: Slight all-over soreness from yesterday, but overall pretty solid. Ready to run tomorrow.

Fun & Play: NSS day, with much progress and productivity, plus a dose of errand-running which was a fun change. It's a pretty nice feeling to hit 4p on Friday and think, "But I don't want to leave yet!" because just I'm SO INTO my workload, and despite the fact that I'm coming back to work in the morning at the TSC event. Happiness. Quiet night at home.