Tuesday, September 30

Nutrition: Treats from my Buddy: BEST.
  • 530a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, SB&J toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 830-Larabar
  • 1115-Renola
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-tuna w mustard, rice crackers, plantain chips (!), guava bootch(!)
  • (545-5.29 miles)
  • 7-3 ribs, SB&J toast, cod liver oil (oh yeah, I've been taking these again)
  • calories 2775: p 750, c 1125, f 900
Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 89% quality. Woke super often; hubs kept waking up from 11p-1a or so, and thus so did I; then I was the one waking constantly 230-5a. I think that was due to overheating, from those damned compression socks and snuggled kittehs. Had an extra-long breakfast time to make up for it.

Healthy Movement: Got up still aching like hell in the hams, of course. They got a little better as I moved, but still stupid-painful. Remind me to never to high reps again, please! Session started out feeling super hard on squats, and bummed on pulls, but then I PR'd on the squats AND on the bench. WOO HOO!!!!!! That's because my Buddy was there. Best surprise of the day!

Got in my 5+ trail miles with my beloveds tonight to hit a kickass PR. It wasn't easy (hams), but I still loved every single step. SO HAPPY.

Fun & Play: Good coworkers. Good meetings. Good texts. Good friends. Good trails. Good numbers. Great times!

Monday, September 29

Nutrition: This weekend's total lack of food prep is hitting me today: where my veggies at?
  • 5a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 3 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 730-Larabar
  • 930-half bag of beef jerky
  • 1145-banana squeeze pack (gut test: passed!)
  • (12p-2.5m run)
  • 1-2 chicken sausage, green apple
  • 330-rest of beef jerky
  • 515-packet coconut butter  (gut test: passed!)
  • (545-5.25m run)
  • 730-3 ribs, apple w SB
  • calories 2475: p 1225, c 400, f 850

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 845p-445a, 80% quality. Took ages to fall asleep, mostly awake from 1-2a, again at 3a, ugh ugh ugh. Still got up feeling fairly rested, somehow.

Healthy Movement: Left outer shin is now a little sore. Hams are sore as shit. Funny that trekking out 20 miles on Saturday left me feeling super great yesterday, but that fucking class yesterday is now beating the CRAP outta me. On the bright side, a few good days of eve PT prevented any core tightness today, woo hoo! Kept me on track: did it after lunch run, and just before bed. Also wore compression socks to bed.

My lunch run was rotten, just felt super terribly disjointed, and rough on the tight hammies, but I'd decided to just suck it up, buttercup, get in my 5, then rest tonight. Walked the baby hills to make it tolerable, decided to break out the music halfway through - and saw a Monica text that she can join me tonight at LCSP. Woo hoo! So, mid-run change of plans: immediately decided I'd shut down after one loop and go LCSP-ing tonight with a buddy. I don't care if it's 5 more brutal miles, it'll be easier to do with MK, and it will help her besides. Win-win. I always cave to a running buddy!

But when I got to LCSP, I truly didn't want to be there: tired, hungry, aching. I almost texted Brian to beg for a pep talk, it was that bad. But I didn't pester him (because, seriously), and instead asked myself how he felt when I got him at mile 78? About twenty times worse or so, right? And didn't he still haul his tired ass another 25 miles? Why yes, yes he did, fiercely so, and so I could surely haul out 5 on easy peasy trails. And I did! It didn't feel great, but it didn't feel awful, and it sure did feel great to have done it!

Fun & Play: Forgot the iPod (thus, podcasts) at home, so I was blasting some Poison (greatest hits) on the drive in - now THAT is a good way to start the day! Class was fun; incorporated one new KB move already. Coworkers/team in a great mood. Super productive day. Trail time with Monica. More Poison; made it through the entire CD! More ribs. 

Nature: Every time I went outside today, I took great big happy gulps of the cool air, maxing out my lung capacity. I fucking LOVE this weather. I just need to figure out how to enjoy winter, when nature is such a brutal wasteland. A private jet + a private island in the Caribbean, that would surely do the trick. 

Tonight's trails turned around my brain as surely as the time with a buddy. Fun to see the color progression in the past week, spot deer and squirrels, hop over a freshly-downed tree, take a new trail. Happy girl. 

Sunday, September 28

Nutrition: I had a low-grade headache from about 12p to 530p. I blame a lack of water + calories, and a surplus of sweating. Made up for it once I got home, and quickly felt better.
  • 430a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, Larabar, coffee w/ CM
  • 915-Larabar 
  • (930-KB class move demonstrations)
  • 12p-bit of Strong bar
  • 1230-bag pork jerky, rest of strong bar, apple
  • (2-beastly Tabata)
  • 4-Renola 
  • 6-summer sausage, rice crackers, pint AZ, bootch, SB&J toast
  • calories 2300: p 950, c 825, f 525

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 830p-415a, 72% quality. In early but couldn't fall asleep; woke many times 130a onward. Up early for KB class.

Healthy Movement: Body feels great, literally feel zero effects from yesterday's run. Yay, trails! Wore compression socks all day anyway. Remembered my PT stretch last night AND tonight. Gold star!

Had a kettlebell certification class that didn't teach me a whole lot (not much NETA can teach me after 5+ years at NSS), but it was fun. Cleaned & pressed a 40-lb KB, and also snatched it - pretty cool, don't know if I've ever gone that heavy. Probably could've done more reps with chalk. But it sucked when we were tested on our form at the end, via a Tabata for 25 stupid, stupid minutes. Room was super hot, with no chalk, and it's godddamn amazing no one took a KB to the head. I managed some ring pull-ups when I got home, all singles, just tried to get something. Angry that this class may impact me for a few days. Still, going to get in another 10 miles by Tuesday no matter what!

Fun & Play: Cruising with Jackie. Class. Lunch outside in the shade. Texting with pals. Checking up on my marathoners. Silent night at home to recover.

Saturday, September 27

Nutrition: Everything I ate on today's run sat perfectly well. Boom! I also totally overate for recovery; hubs brought home these incredible smoked pork ribs that are irresistible & better than bacon. But tomorrow's KB class might be a real beast, too, want to be prepared, and also I've gotta get another 10 miles in the next three days, to hit my ambitious-for-me mileage goal.
  • 515a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • (730-20m run)
  • 830-toddler pouch (apples, carrots, parsnips), salt tab
  • 9-toddler pouch (coconut milk, many fruits)
  • 930-SB&J sandwich (woo hoo!), salt tab
  • 1030-5 chews w caffeine, salt tab
  • 1145-Larabar
  • 1p-summer sausage, rice crackers, B&B pickles, 3 ribs, kombucha
  • 545-3 ribs, ginger super cookies, SB&J toast
  • calories 3675: p 1075, c 1275, f 1325

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 87% quality. Solid until 330a, woke often after that. Napped 330-5p, post-run.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling quite good, and logged my 20-miler like a champ! Nailed my route, my nutrition, my hydration, my electrolytes, my gear, all of it. It was a gorgeous fun morning for most of it, so mentally I never struggled much at all. It never really got too physically tough, kept easily coming out of the little lows I did hit. The worst was the very end in the heat and direct sun and flat paved trail. A good idea to save the feet & ankles, but the heat made it brutal. Would never have managed so well without Jodi at my side. "If she can do it, I can do it; if I can do it, she can do it" ran through my head, nicely coinciding with each footfall. Super lazy afterward; prioritizing the hell out of recovery due to tomorrow's class, followed by possibly two more days of running. Bummed that I have nothing left to give to pull-ups, hoping there will be some strength back tomorrow.

Fun & Play: Time with Monica & Jodi. A great run where I made all the right decisions. Pulling Monica up to keep her from feeling defeated with good advice and a positive outlook. Two of my peeps checking in with me to ask how the run went; so precious are my beloveds! Nap time with kittehs. The ribs, oh, the RIBS. Quiet night at home with minimal chores to accomplish, the luxury to really prioritize: bills paid, laundry washed, done!

Friday, September 26

Nutrition: Ate whatevah all day, and landed at 2350, right exactly where I should. Impressive! I then added a pint of AZ for an extra caloric boost before tomorrow's 20 miles. A great place to be.
  • 615-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • (915-2m?? Walk)
  • 1030-2 eggs, ham, potatoes, coffee
  • 3-apple, carrot cake super cookies, root beer bootch
  • 530-summer sausage, rice crackers, bread & butter pickles, brownie (last one!)
  • 7-pint AZ
  • calories 2500: p 950, c 1150, f  400

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 915p-6a, 86% quality. I tossed and turned a ton from 130a onward. Ugh. Was nearly up for good at 4a but managed to fall back solidly. 

Healthy Movement: Super tight left Achilles out of bed, but good within minutes. Must be better about post-run stretching. Left core tight any time I got up. Had an absolutely lovely walk with Timmy & Mac, including some play time at the park. 

Fun & Play: Morning at NSS, although I missed my Holea. Walk in the sunshine, and brunch, with Timmy & Mac. Fun-for-me time helping Dustin efficientize the spreadsheet I made him; we may have chopped him from 30 minutes per week down to 20 - I live for that! A flippin' gorgeous day, which I can opine only due to the rest day. Mini adventure tracking down Brian, to borrow his pack for tomorrow's long run, since mine is being exchanged. I met him outside his boy's preschool, so I got to see this adorable conga-line of a dozen little children trotting along between teachers and craning their little necks for sight of their parents. It was the CUTEST. Had nine new pairs of fancy socks waiting for me at home! Texts about the group trail run tomorrow. Transferring workout gear to my new NSS bag. Quiet night, hubs off to a work picnic. Fetch with delighted pooches. Lazy time with soft kittehs. All the good things.

Thursday, September 25

  • 5a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, brownie, coffee w/ CM
  • 830-Larabar
  • 11-Kind Strong bar
  • (1130-Dustin session)
  • 1245p-chicken, yam, Larabar
  • 5-salt tab, "red one" squeeze pack
  • (545-6m run)
  • 730-Daiya pizza, cola kombucha
  • calories 2975: p 475, c 2050, f 450

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 91% quality. In late due to texting with pals...about the importance of sleep. Genius. Took a while to fall asleep, tossing and turning 3-4a, but somehow got up feeling pretty good.

Healthy Movement: Tight lower legs but still packed running gear for an eve run. Fun session, half of it with my Timmy! Couldn't find any buddies to run with me this time plus it was quite hot - I almost bailed. But I used those buddies to get me there despite the heat, to take me off-trail, to push me a little harder and a little faster. Love that I can bring them along in my head, but it's better to have them in-person. I even remembered my PT before bed, what a winning day!

Fun & Play: Busy, productive morning. Session. Great afternoon meeting, very positive. Fabulous solo run on another gorgeous night. Tomorrow off. Hubs time.

Wednesday, September 24

  • 445a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, SB&J toast, coffee w CM
  • 10-S&H jerky, chocolate mint tea
  • 1230p-coffee
  • 1-apple
  • 145-SB&J sandwich
  • 230-2 hot dogs, brownie, lemon bootch
  • 430-5 chews
  • (5-10m run)
  • halfway through run-Renola
  • 715-salad w avocado
  • calories 2625: p 700, c 975, f 950

Sleep: 7.25 hours in bed, 915p-430a, 75% quality. Solid but completely wide awake at 4a for whatever reason. Dozed as long as I could. Slow, long, leisurely breakfast to make up for it. Seems par for the night before a long run, anyway.

Healthy Movement: Feeling awesome. Jealous of my class as they did burpees. (#crazypersonsayswhat) Misc errands and waiting around for buddies pushed my 10-mile run out to end of day, no need to burn up PTO for it, but it was nice to chill for a bit. The run itself couldn't have gone much better, given mid-week miles and a late start. Left core a little more pronounced than I'd like, but I didn't feel it until my fatigue started to kick in a little, around 7.

I've figured out I will have my highest-mileage month evah, long as I stay committed to bonus miles through Tuesday. 107 miles would be a max by 1 mile over June of 2011 (when I was attempting to train for Eisenbahn), although now I'm also considering finding time for two more 5-milers, so that in September I would match what Brian did in just 24 hours at FANS. 1 day for him, 30 for me...seems about right.

Fun & Play: Class. LAPW meeting. Hooky afternoon to burn up excess PTO. I got to renew my driver's license and erase the final constant reminder of my stupid DUI (picture was me in running gear because I couldn't drive there, had to run over from work). An hour of relaxation in front of the TV with kitties in my lap. A truly lovely run in the woods, happy Fall y'all! A run that felt great. Silence at home.

Tuesday, September 23

Nutrition: Brownies turned out so good, as always, and so addictive.
  • 615a-1 egg, mustard, 2 toast, 3 chicken sausage, coffee w/ CM
  • 8-more coffee w/ more CM
  • 10-frosting sampling...licking beaters, mmmmm!
  • 11-frosted brownie
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 115-tuna w/ mustard, rice crackers, apple
  • 4-Larabar, half brownie
  • (545-yoga video)
  • 7-salad w avocado, pepper vinaigrette, hot dog, brownie pan scrapings
  • calories 2375: p 525, c 1000, f 850

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 915p-6a, 94% quality. I slept like a goddamn rock, and still the alarm had to wake me up. Felt like I could've made it to 8a or so. Glorious.

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty great. Session was awesome; still bummed that my pulls have dropped a bit, but a bench PR was a beautimonious thing! Even more fun was having Timmy in my first half. I miss lifting with my Buddy. Did a yoga video after work, not hard, didn't work up enough heat to benefit from the stretch poses. Did find a new way to stretch the left core, though, which feels amazing.

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Bringing team treats and sharing them with some extra favorites. Session, bonus Excel talk with Dustin. CFO ready to push for something the Finance team has been saying for years. Silly coworker time. Running talk with Monica, including maybe her joining me tomorrow for an afternoon hooky run! Leftover brownie bits. Hubs home late tonight, finally. 

Monday, September 22

Nutrition: So, the acne is still terrible despite cutting out nuts. Maybe I should also cut out the Larabars & Kind bars and be truly nut-free during long-run season? Argh.
  • 515a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 9-apple, coconut butter
  • 12p-Renola
  • (1215-3m run)
  • 115-chicken, yam, apple
  • 415-pepitas
  • 6-veg & guac, hot dog, brownie sampling, frosting sampling
  • 730-SB&J toast
  • calories 2325: p 600, c 875, f 850
Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 81% quality. Solid as a rock until 430a, but was probably capable of going back under. A very good thing I had the coffee maker programmed today.

Healthy Movement: Tight lower legs, and that's it. I'm so happy I could cry! Run immediately told me to take it easy, things all felt disjointed and weird. So I did downhills. And wilted in the 69F heat wave. SUCH A FALL BABY. Stretched well post-run but left core was rather annoyed after sitting in meetings.

Fun & Play: Busy morning. Decent run, giant dose of sunshine. Silly texts from hubs. Good meetings. Brief team break outside on the patio in the glorious weather. (Great for sitting, not for running.) Making treats for the team. Chats with buds. Fetch with dogs and time in the sunshine with bare feet in the grass.

Sunday, September 21

Nutrition: Today I figured out that an SB&J sandwich is pretty tasty despite the dry sad bread. Another tasty food option for the 50k.
  • 645a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, lotta coffee w lotta CM
  • 1030-SB&J sandwich
  • (11-hulking)
  • 1215p-hot dog, Renola
  • 230-apple 
  • 330-Larabar
  • (4-7m [!] run)
  • 515-coconut/fruit squeeze pack
  • 7-hot dog w mustard, veg & guac, SB&J toast
  • calories 2050: p 575, c 700, f 775

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 1030p-645a, 87% quality. In late due to ROUS-chatting on FB & such fun stuff. Luckily, Hanky was thoroughly exhausted by yesterday's party, so the whole household slept in. Nice! I was dozing like 6a onward, but couldn't quite get all the way back under. Got up feeling rested.

Healthy Movement: Body feels great. Zero post-long-run issues other than blistery spots and the sliced toe. What? No aching knees, hips, muscles? Happy! Benching felt heavy today so I cut it short a bit, that may be a carryover from yesterday's hard run. However, the afternoon trail run with Brian felt great again. Lungs struggled a bit with the pace my legs were setting, and that was my only problem. Best running problem ever! Stretched the left core after the run, and did the PT stretch off the bed in the eve. MUST get back to consistency with that.

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Silent house, peace and quiet most welcome after yesterday's chaos. Great news from Brian - he doesn't have to quit his old job to take his new (dream) job! Happy for him. Few silly texts with my Buddy. Visit to see parents, always pleasant, and extra bonus-filled at harvest time (apples and potatoes and carrots and onions and chickens, oh my!), and incredibly thrilled pooches for the road trip. A truly lovely run on a gorgeous night. Loving fall so very, very much. A phone call from the hubs - he's stuck in a frustrating situation for work, and won't be home for a few more days, and then immediately gone again, but it was nice to hear from him. Stopped at NSS for a purchase for silent auction, got to chat with Steve and his wee cutie-pie Emma who knows me! Delightful. 

Saturday, September 20

Nutrition: All I did was chews just before the run. Sat okay; not great, not bad.
  • 515a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 715-4 chews
  • (730-10-mile race)
  • 930-banana, apple
  • 12p-chicken, yam, bit of BBQ sauce
  • 445-Larabar
  • 630?-1.5 slices bacon explosion, bunch of bacon-wrapped water chestnuts, few veg & guac, pear kombucha 
  • 9-SB&J toast
  • calories 2700: p 700, c 1075, f 925
Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 83% quality. In late because I was trying to get Hank back inside. Instead he spent the night missing his soft cushy bed, as did Clyde! Damn kids. I slept like a rock until just before 4a, then fell back HARD and the alarm flipped out on me at 5a. Damn, would've been nice to sleep in today.

Healthy Movement: Race day! Got up feeling decent but tired. Race itself went pretty much as well as it should have given where I am; I was running faster than my lungs could tolerate because I just haven't trained fast. And it was quite humid. During the run, just one gulp of water; I actually stopped for at least 30s to chat with AS volunteers and see if Monica or Jodi was right behind me.

I think I'm done with race mode. I don't enjoy it unless it's a very short race, like 5k, maybe a 10k. But for those, if I don't have a chance of winning, I can't say I'm interested. I don't want to run like hell on the bike path for 22 minutes and finish 7th place. If that's the case, I'd rather skip it and go trek for two hours at GLSP instead.

When I raced too much, it eventually stopped being fun. It's a lot of high-effort runs during the week, no ability to tool along and simply enjoy the movement; and obviously I put high pressure on myself to perform, and no one, especially not me, can live up to my self-expectations.

I am doing much better by basing my effort on how I'm feeling today, given this past week, my mental state, whether I have a running buddy to hang with, etc. Nice low expectations, maybe even zero: just take what the body gives, and let that dictate the outcome. Since I'll never be elite even if I do bust ass, I think I'm good with this attitude. Running a race hard "just to finish" is simply not appealing anymore. I don't have anything to prove to myself in that regard. And running a race easy "just to finish" is a waste of cash, unless it's super silly fun like the Monster Dash was.

Or super fun trail times. I'm fully excited to run WD50k "just to finish," because it's absolutely worth the dollars. Unless I could regularly organize running group outings to the North Shore, these events are what it takes to fully immerse myself as deeply as possible in the love of my fellow trail-running peeps. The Superior 100 taught me just how badly I need those immersions. It also reminded me that I don't need to be the one running to feel that love, so continuing to crew Brian (& others?) on such epic outings is also high on my priority list.

Fun & Play: Race and all the running buddies all day long! Tons of fun having everyone over, absolute chaos with all the kids and pooches running everywhere, but it was great. It was also great when they left and my house returned to utter silence and I had a wee bit of solo bonfire time. A pretty fabulous day!

Friday, September 19

Nutrition: I believe I doubled my usual coffee intake today. Oops. And I guess I didn't need to eat the entire pizza for supper, but hey, maybe I'll feel awesome for tomorrow's ten miles. And if not, well, at least I should feel pretty good.
  • 515a-2 eggs, roasted veg, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 645-Americano indulgence from Caribou (so very needed, ugh)
  • 915-bag pork jerky, tiny apple, moar coffees w/ CM
  • 1130-Larabar
  • 1230p-chicken, yam, apple
  • 3-Strong bar
  • 545-Larabar 
  • 730-Daiya pizza, root beer bootch
  • calories 3450: p 825, c 2075, f 350

: 8.25 hours in bed, 845p-5a, 89% quality. Took a while to fall asleep, probably could have waited until 9p, and woke at 430a, in/out. Solid in between, but got up feeling quite tired. 

Healthy Movement: Tight lower legs, went away quickly. Left core tight, did the stretch for it before leaving home. Just a little tight throughout the day; sat at NSS and thus it was worse afternoon & eve. Very low energy all day.

Fun & Play: Cranky today; not much fun was had, crappy task I didn't want to do. However, NSS was lively, which helped quite a bit. Got house ready for visitors, excited to have pals over! Reminds me that we still haven't done a housewarming party in almost two years, yet the BIL is having one in a month. They've only been in their place a month, plus they have a newborn. What's our deal? Oh yeah: anti-social laziness!

Thursday, September 18

  • 5a-1 egg, 3 chicken sausage, roasted veg, 3 toast, SB, coffee w/ CM
  • 9-Larabar, coffee w/ CM
  • 1130-(homemade!) beef jerky
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 115-2 hot dogs w mustard, a "red one" squeeze pack, Larabar
  • 315-roasted salted almonds (okay, and now they're gone), tiny apple
  • 545-salad w artichoke dip, apple w SB
  • calories 2200: p 575, c 675, f 950

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 915p-530a, 92% quality. Very solid, but dozed in/out 5a onward, too tired to get up. Luckily I had a 730a meeting which meant lots of time to kill.

Healthy Movement: Sore left core, rest feels just fine. Yay, trails! Crampy guts. Perhaps not guts? Ugh, no thanks. Great session, everything felt a little tender while foam rolling, just from the pressure, but the training itself went pretty damned good. Very tired late morning but also very hungry, so perhaps related. Also this was after sitting for 2 hours; somehow THAT is always what makes me sleepiest. Sleepy in afternoon as well; eating didn't help. I wasn't sitting, either! I took that as a sign to skip yoga, go get the errands done, then get my damned butt home. A good decision.

Fun & Play: Quiet slow morning = best way to start the day. Silly coworker fun times. Session. Quiet peaceful evening at home. Sensing a theme here?

Wednesday, September 17

  • 5a-2 eggs, 2 toast, 3 chicken sausage, roasted veg, coffee w/ CM
  • 8a-Larabar, coffee w/ CM & cinnamon
  • 10-Larabar
  • 1215-2 hot dogs, bit of leftover chicken & yams, chia bootch
  • 330-banana, few roasted salted almonds
  • 5-6 Pro Bar chews
  • (515-45min run)
  • 7-salad w avocado, 2 toast, apple w SB
  • calories 2625: p 575, c 1000, f 650
Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 830p-445a, 87% quality. Wide awake at 345a, what the fuck? Nice to wake without an alarm, but seriously, why a full hour early?? Dozed in & out, got up feeling fairly rested but a little worried about the impact on my day.

Healthy Movement: Good, just some left core tightness. Maybe I should be doing my PT, eh? Dumb ass. Did in eve. No lunch workout, busy volunteering like a bleeding heart. Instead, even better, I met Brian for more trails out at LCSP. A bit hot at 70F (just kidding) (mostly), but it was gorgeous. Could feel yesterday's squats just a wee bit in the quads, but nothing that would have slowed me down much. Surprisingly, I would've loved more miles, but Brian had an angry calf that kept us shorter. It's fucking phenomenal what a running buddy does for my miles: "I don't want them to end! Let's run forever!" Contrast that to miles with only the voices in my head to keep me company: "Meh. This is hard. Maybe I should lift weights instead?"

Fun & Play: Not a productive work day by any means, many meetings, volunteering for UW, flu shot, another meeting, etc...but it was fun as shit. I love my coworkers. I love our completely unprofessional chats. I love that I feel vital again. Silly doggy picture from the hubs. Wonderful to scoot out a touch early, and to hit trails; nothing beats time in nature. After our run we stood around talking, absorbing the peace & quiet of an empty park, for like 15 more minutes. Bliss.

Tuesday, September 16

Nutrition: Eliminating bacon for a while means Hanky is now a big-eyed, sad-faced, thoroughly disappointed pooch every morning when he doesn't get a nice big juicy piece of pure pork fat. Me, too, kid...me, too.
  • 5a-1 egg, mustard, 2 toast, roasted veg, 3 chicken sausage, coffee w CM
  • 615a-Larabar
  • 7-more coffee w CM & cinnamon (this happens every day, I usually forget to record it)
  • 1030-(homemade!) beef jerky, coconut butter
  • (1130-Dustin session)
  • 1p-chicken, yam
  • 3-chocolate super cookies
  • 6-salad w avocado & pepper vinaigrette dressing, 2 hot dogs 
  • calories 2575: p 900, c 775, f 900

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 845p-445a, 87% quality. WIDE awake at 4a, dozing as long as I could. What the hell, why couldn't I sleep until 6a? Annoying. Fine if I had popped out of bed bright & refreshed, but I did not.

Healthy Movement: Tight left core, tight lower legs (didn't stretch post-run yesterday, dumb), all else is good. Session went great after initial disappointment on pull-ups. I was feeling so super strong all the way through #10 and then they just went to hell. What on earth happened? Anyway, I know, poor me, I can only do 13 pull-ups today. Sorry so weak, bro.

Dustin questioned what has changed in that my running feels so good again, and my lifting is on the up & up, and I just plain ol' feel so very good. I told him nothing has changed, but he said "It's gotta be something - it's ALWAYS something."

There are many little things, like perfect fall weather, a massive dose of endorphins & happiness from the Superior 100 weekend, lowered work stress, less internalizing, more fun events with my various peeps...little things that are, perhaps, really the big things.

Perhaps also dramatically reducing nuts, but analyzing the physical reasons isn't nearly as fun as recognizing the awesome people-related things because I know they have a huge impact on the state of my brain, and for me that always translates directly to the physical.

Fun & Play: Productive work day, fun chats, fun team break playing a game, good things. Great session, and with my Timmy, too! Sitting by MB & Joy during the all-team. Fun, non-sarcastic, energizing lovelies! Few more chores knocked out in the eve, plus going to bed early. Delicious.

Monday, September 15

Nutrition: REALLY hungry today, couldn't eat enough. Also low on work snacks; somehow I had zero Larabars or Kind bars or anything and didn't know it. However! Turned out I had 4 cases of Larabars that had arrived to my door on Saturday and I just finally discovered them today. Now I'm all stocked up on all the very best flavors.
  • 515a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, roasted veg, 3 toast, coffee w CM
  • 845-coconut butter
  • 1045-roasted salted almonds (kept to ~1/2 oz), large green apple
  • (1215p-30min run)
  • 115-chicken, yam, few more almonds
  • 6-salad w avocado & pepper vinaigrette dressing, 2 toast, apple w SB
  • calories 2350: p 550, c 875, f 925

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 66% quality. Tossed & turned more than usual. Wide awake at 4a, happy to have more time to sleep, but I fell back hard and the alarm buzzed me at 5a sharp. Gah-ross.

Healthy Movement: Left core tight. Stretched it after class, stayed tight all day. Lunch run was a nice hard push, enjoyed doing that for a change. HOORAY, FALL! Did my PT after the run like a good girl. Still a tight core, but man, remembering how good that side stretch felt prompted me to do it again in the eve. I'm on a roll!

Fun & Play: Good moods at work, especially given it's a Monday. A quick chat with my Timmy. Sent a surprise gift to Greg to repay him for breakfast at the Superior 100, both because he didn't need to pay to feed me, and also because it was my monthly RAK day! A training class with my Buddy, no chance for talking, but lovely to see her. Surprisingly solid run. Saw Brian after that run and had an excuse to stand outside for 5 extra minutes in the glorious, lovely fall day. Rough to go back inside, want an outside job right now, pretty please! Hubs home all eve, plenty of chatting and even some chores done, including him dragging a pile of giant branches out from the weeds, just for me & my Saturday-night bonfire. Score!

Sunday, September 14

Nutrition: Got my act together in terms of food prep: whole slow-cooker chicken with a jar of salsa dumped on it; 4 packages of frozen veg cooked up, sprinkled with a TS spice, for a breakfast side; 2 packages of breakfast chicken sausage cooked (need to lay off the bacon for a while); bunch of yams cooked. Go me!
  • 645-2 eggs, bacon, roasted veg (cabbage, bok choi, rutabaga, cauliflower), 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • (1015-hulking session)
  • 1145-summer sausage w rice crackers, apple w SB
  • 215-coconut bar
  • 545-2 hot dogs w mustard, 3 toast w SB & CB & jelly, half kombucha
  • (645-4.6m run)
  • Calories 2275: P 600, C 575, F 1100

Sleep: 9 (!) hours in bed, 930p-630a, 86% quality. Coughed myself awake at 130a (I am apparently allergic to my work desk, and my bed), hit bathroom and drank water to soothe the throat. In/out 5a onward, trying to fall back but no luck. Got up rested but a little groggy. Felt a little sleepy while hammocking but otherwise I had zero need for a nap, no energy crash. Cool!

Healthy Movement: I got up feeling really damn good. Little core tightness but the legs & the hips, they felt just fine, how is that possible?! I expected at least SOME creakiness to start my day. Not even any left-knee pain on stairs, and. THAT is a total shock. Put on compression socks anyway, figured every little bit helps if I'm running tonight, too. Had me a fun hulking session, improved my bench a bit over two weeks ago; all things felt good. Not stellar, not bad, just good. If not for the evening run plan, would've dragged the tire outside for some flips in the lovely warm sunshine. Instead I got to enjoy an easy run at LCSP; worth the trade-off both for the company, the nature, and the fantastic T&S training. The left core felt somewhat tight while running, but not bad. Need to get back onto my proper PT schedule and I'm sure it will go away again. Also I made sure to stuff myself before the run to see if it would sit well. I was fine, but I did have about an hour to digest, so I still don't know if I could put much down DURING a run.

Fun & Play: Productive day, lots of chores & food prep & cleaning done. Not fun to DO, but fun to HAVE DONE. Good hulking session. Sunshine & open windows. Hammock time. Not feeling beat-up from yesterday. Very enjoyable easy run. Chatting with Brian. Hubs back home.

Nature: Open windows again, yay! Hammock time! It took bundling up into a hat, mittens, and a sleeping bag, but it was worth it. Especially when a fawn wandered right into my yard. Eeee! And the run at LCSP was so perfect. Perfect temps, quiet time of day, peaceful woods. Fall is the best, yo.

Saturday, September 13

Nutrition: Starving on my run today; need more solid food in my belly. Tough to figure out what will be more substantial but still sit well.
  • 5-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • (715-15m run)
  • During-4 chews, salt tab, "yellow one" squeeze pack
  • 1045-whey shake
  • 1130-2 eggs, ham, breakfast potatoes, coffee
  • 130p-apple w SB
  • (230-430-nap)
  • 430-SB&J toast, 2 cod liver oil
  • 630-salad w avocado, 2 toast
  • 8-pint AZ w mango & coconut butter
  • Calories 2875: P 750, C 1075, F 1050

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 9p-445a, 88% quality. Dozing 430a onward, but Hanky wouldn't let me go any later. Felt solid, would've liked more. Napped after the run, 2 lovely hours. Got up feeling rather refreshed.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling quite good. Run had high points and low points, as most do. Never felt awesome, but only felt like serious work in the last five miles. A success! Left core was tight off and on after about 2/3, and stiffened up afterward, but wasn't bad the rest of the day. There, but not flinchingly so.

Fun & Play: Fanstastic running weather, and a successful outing with many friends. Second breakfast. Nap. Silly chats with my peeps. Good racing news from the hubs. Snuggly pets.

Friday, September 12

Nutrition: Ate up the calories today, but felt exhausted all day long, like I couldn't possible get enough energy from the calories I took in. Weird.
  • 6a-1 egg, bacon, mustard, 2 toast, SB&J toast, coffee w CM
  • 945-bag pork jerky
  • 1215p-can tuna w mustard, rice crackers, whey shake
  • 330-chocolate super cookies
  • 6-Daiya pizza, root beer kombucha (so super noms)
  • calories 2950: p 700, c 1550, f 700

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 930p-6a, 97% quality. More like 80%. I was awake & dozing in/out 5a onward. Again reliving all the highlights of last weekend. Just so much loveliness that turned my brain around, when I didn't even realize it needed it. But sleep would've been better. In late due to keeping up with online pals and also this time it was Oscar who wouldn't get his ass back inside. Damn kids! Very nearly considered skipping NSS to nap and instead work there over the weekend, but my overbooked schedule prevented that option. Getting up early again in the morning to run, thus I will definitely be going to bed early tonight like a good kid.

Healthy Movement: Body feels good, but tired. Sat down a few times very briefly at TS (to file things) and didn't want to get up at all. Very tired. At NSS, all chairs occupied so I nearly built a standing station, then realized I could steal the rolling trunk and sit on that; I did, and enjoyed the sitting very much so. Tired.

Fun & Play: Super productive workday, by necessity: no time to fuck around on Fridays. Races are going well in WI for Hop's buddy. Or at least, last night went well. Still don't actually wish I were there.Got a text from my Lisa that she had a good run, on her first run in two months, yay for feeling good for all of us! I hope she gets back into a groove, because I definitely miss running with her.

Saw my Buddy, felt like it's been ages. (It has. A single day without her is too much.) I miss her and I just had to hug her because I am feeling so super lovey toward all of my people lately, and she is one of my tip top favorites, and sometimes she reads this so I hope she sees that. (Mwah!)

I don't know why my brain is so exhausted by Friday afternoon, but it is, and especially today. I was happy to have NSS to myself after 3 or so, I craved the silence for once. Brain was very tired. Have I mentioned I am tired today? At least my attitude is fine, feeling good about my life. Especially my people; do you know how perfectly awesome my friends are? If you're one of them, then you do.

Quiet evening at home. Eat all the carbs, read a book, laugh at the silly pooches, snuggle with the soft kittehs.

Thursday, September 11

Nutrition: Starving today; apparently my appetite is back, but with a vengeance, sheesh. I am in desperate need of time to food-prep, or else my case of tuna to show up (hurry, Amazon!), because jerky for lunch is not acceptable. It's fucking delicious, but so not affordable. I've been really dumb about food spending, need to rein that shit in. I could make a lot of my snacks for a hell of a lot cheaper, just need to make the time.
  • 6a-1 egg, mustard, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • 945-Larabar
  • 11-Renola
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-S&H jerky, banana
  • 330-Paleo bar
  • (6-1-hour run)
  • 730-salad w avocado, 2 toast
  • calories 2175: p 525, c 850, f 800
Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 930p-545a, 86% quality. Was basically awake 5a onward. Reliving the weekend, trying to cement all those perfect moments into my memory.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling good. Brain was feeling awesome enough to request heavier weight TGUs in my session, after meekly sticking with the safe light 16kg for weeks now. The actual convo after the first rep with 16kg:
Dustin: So what do you want to do?
Oh yeah, and besides the happier TGUs, there was that little bitty PR in my ring pull-ups!
FIFTEEN straight ring pulls! (Or, as my brain keeps stating it: fif-fuckin-teen!)
I wish Dustin had been watching to audit that number because frankly I don't even know how I did it. They just flew up. I say GODDAMN, that made me happy! Next, must hit 15 on the NG bar, and then...well...twenty, obviously. Never satisfied.

Eve run with Monica was amazingly good, and an hour long without effort. It was the kind of good that got me into running to a start with. Please stay, wonderful feeling! Please please please!

Fun & Play: Cool morning weather. Productive work day. Fabulous session. All the plans with all the running buddies. A fantastic run, doesn't get better than enjoying the movement.

Hubs heading out on a well-deserved vacation - just wish I were going with. Brian had better feel so fucking special that I traded it for last weekend. But honestly: it was worth it, the Superior 100 was much more fun than the Legendary 100 has been in the past many years. For someone who doesn't drink, can't eat any of the group food, hasn't watched the races at all this year, has very little in common with the rest of the group, and likes to go to bed by 9pm & get up at 6am...it's not all that fun anymore. There's maybe a single mile of trails nearby, and zero squat racks or pull-up bars! And I can hole up with a book in the peace & quiet at home, and that will be more restful than CLS would've been anyway. But hey, I'm not holing up at all! Running with all my besties (YAY), and then also cleaning my entire house (BOO), so that they can come over next weekend (YAY) for a bonfire (EXTRA YAY).

Wednesday, September 10

Nutrition: I honestly missed having Brussels sprouts at breakfast. I have turned into THAT asshole.
  • 515a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w coconut milk
  • 815-5 Reese's Pieces, coffee
  • 945-Larabar
  • (1145-30min run)
  • 1230p-yam chili, few rice crackers, applesauce
  • 315-Renola
  • (545-30min yoga)
  • 7-salad w avocado, 2 toast, pork jerky 
  • calories 2150: p 600, c 825, f 725

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 89% quality. In a touch late since I was single-parenting the dogs for the night, hubs off trucking once again. (Better get used to it, pumping season is around the corner.) Alarm woke me and I was not happy with it. Think I could have rocked another hour thanks to the dark & cold. Is there any better time to sleep than in the fall?

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty great, surprisingly. Class warm-up felt so good that I wanted desperately to join in. Stayed smart & did my shoulder stretches/holds per Dustin's instructions yesterday, plus a spell of third-world squat sitting. Really don't know why that position feels so good, but it sure does. Haven't done my PT exercises since Thursday, BAD SABRINA. Did PT after my lunch run and remembered why I hate it: 10 minutes that feel like I'm accomplishing nothing at all, and yes I know that's not true. The run itself was lovely, it was a nice change to be EXCITED TO RUN, it has been a long time. Hooray, Fall! And also thanks to the Superior 100; it certainly has left me more excited about running. Had yoga club, which didn't do much for the body, stretches without a warm-up is pointless to me, but it was hilarious fun for the brain. We are fully ruined for live yoga classes, what with our giggling and swearing and smart-assery.

Fun & Play: Super fun class today; don't know why, but I enjoyed the hell out of it. Bonus Excel chat with Dustin on a file I made him. Trail-running excitement for the upcoming weekend, will have more than one running buddy! 50k logistics with Monica. Emailed an entire team (not mine) welcoming them to sitting near us, because work really is more fun having lively bunches of peeps nearby. Yoga.

Reading Brian's Superior 100 write-up, experiencing all those emotions again. I wanted to call him up and be like, "YEAH, and when you sat down, I almost dragged your ass out of that chair before it landed!" or "When you dropped those water bottles I wanted to pick them up & shove them down your throat, you MUST TAKE THEM!" and the like. Just live it all again, get all 6 of us back together filling in the blanks that the others missed. GAWD that was the best weekend ever.

Nature: I want to hit the woods at night again, for real. It was too awesome. Granted, I'm not going to get a view like I did on the SHT, nor have all the adrenaline of race day pace day, but the darkness brought so much extra peace & serenity into the woods! I must taste it again, and soon. What has become of me, the timid rabbit?

Stress Management: A bunch of freshly-minted-trail-loving ROUSers are babbling on about doing the Spring Superior 50k in May. I'm feeling super totally caught up in the trail-running excitement and thinking ME TOO, because 50k is a piece of cake because it's trails and trails are always so much fun!

But, please, someone remind me at registration time: tax season, tax season, tax season! Do. Not. Sign. Up. I can crew for them, I can work an aid station, whatever; I can find a way to be in the atmosphere, but I must NOT run it. Training for it, while a million times more fun than Boston training, is something I should not do. I will certainly start running trails again as soon as spring opens them up, but I don't need the pressure of 31 miles looming over that fresh spring lovefest. I need to love my runs, I will not survive if I return to dreading them. 

Based on my recent past, I've firmly decided that my winter needs to be a serious deload from running, both for my body & my sanity, with a focus on lifting instead. You may see me type this daily until I'm convinced. Someone, please take the responsibility to remind me of this. Joy, I nominate you to be my conscience on this one: don't let my beloved well-meaning running friends talk me into doing something so foolish!

Tuesday, September 9

Nutrition: Doubling down on coconut to make up for lost nut calories. A rather delicious idea! Not going to be enough, though, as I need like 400 calories replaced, and I'm not going to down a can of coconut milk a day. And spoonsful of coconut butter, while fucking delicious, lead to overeating VERY easily. It's goddamn amazing, you know.

Would be cheaper than a bag of pork jerky, though. Protein shakes are a decent idea, not that expensive, but I don't want to overdo the whey, nor peas (legumes), certainly want zero soy, and egg white protein is usually just fucking gross. Maybe I should do a greens shake with liquid egg whites. But I can't run a blender in the morning; the hubs is still sleeping when I leave, much less when I'm breakfasting. This is one reason I've always avoided shakes: no good time to have them. But mostly because it starts to lead me back to disordered eating and calorie cutting and starvation; eating real food is just a better smarter safer option for my health & sanity. Or at least, has been in the past. Maybe I'm smarter now. (Wishful thinking!)

Gawd, I lead SUCH a difficult life. Poor little me and my tiny challenges. This is why no one should read this claptrap nonsense. I should add a caution in the header: reading my brain vomit is likely to make you puke as well!

  • 545a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, apple w/ SB, coffee w/ CM
  • 815-coffee w/ CM
  • 9-moar coffee (oops)
  • 1115-half Kind bar
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-half Daiya pizza, half Kind bar, Dr Pepper-flavored bootch, holy shit!
  • 4-coconut butter
  • 630-salad w half avocado, 2 toast
  • calories 2175: p 175, c 1150, f 875

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 930p-530a, 82% quality. Up too late because I am still trying to catch up on everyone else's lives on FB. Happily, I also got smart enough to start culling off people who never post anything worthwhile. Erase some clutter. Anyway, woke naturally, but could have snuggled back down in, if not for Hank. Had a long, slow breakfast to make up for it.

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty good. Session went well, deload & thus easy peasy boring nonsense; pull-ups are not coming back as quickly as I'd like, but a decent showing, anyway. 

Fun & Play: Plotting out some details around my own upcoming ultra. Feels like I should actually call it an "ultra" after seeing so many badasses doing 3x my distance...plus! Anyway, Amy can't come. (Boo, hiss!) May have to depend on drop bags unless Monica's hubs is going to traipse around crewing, but I'm not even sure he's going. Chatted with Monica about weekend run plans.

I got this from Mike today. Made my day! Damn, I love when people GET me. And I can't wait to pass it along to someone else.

A compliment PLUS a double-swear? Yes, please!!

Stress Management: Heard from Mary: she got a job! Para at the school. Low pay and no benefits, but the benefits of getting to spend more time with her kiddos, and have their schedule: nearly priceless. So very, very happy for her. I hope this layoff really does turn out to be the best thing that could've happened to her, to all of us, really & truly. I want roses to bloom from this bullshit, desperately so. All of this pain for everyone has GOT to have a payoff, right? All three of my direct reports are now re-employed. Relief.

Temperance: Today a coworker complimented me rather profusely on my hair. It is pretty awesome, I know this. And I can say that easily because, in my weird brain, my hair isn't ME. It's inherited from my papa, it's nothing to do with something I did: I didn't earn it. So why, I pondered afterward, do I identify 100% with my skin? Why do I hate my face so fiercely when it's full of breakouts? If my hair isn't me, then is my skin me? Must learn from this random thought. It seems wise. Don't let it go.

Monday, September 8

Nutrition: I had to force-feed myself today. Still not hungry. 
  • 5a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee
  • 8-coffee w coconut milk
  • 10-Kind bar
  • 1215p-chef salad
  • 3-pork jerky
  • 715-half daiya pizza, protein shake
  • calories 2000: p 725, c 900, f 375
Acne: Avoiding snacking on straight nuts, but allowing the small doses in my Kind bars, Larabars, etc. We'll see what happens; skin cleared up a decent amount over the weekend by avoiding them but also not doing a long run (hiking is not the same stress, yo). I've got to do a long run this weekend, we'll see if that causes any kind of reaction.

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 915p-445a, 61% quality. Woke up a lot, tossing & turning. Woke h/s/g several times but too exhausted to get up and do anything. (Kept dreaming about crewing! Where is Brian's shit?! Let's go!!) Tired and very, very dumb in the afternoon. Slow. Feeling the effects of the weekend sleep deprivation, big time.

Healthy Movement: Class warm-up felt excellent, very little soreness other than hips, and that isn't even my recent problem areas, hooray! Could feel some deep ache in the lower legs when I stretched them, but nothing felt bad enough to stop a run. However, the afternoon work stupidity FRIED MY BRAIN and my planned after-work run turned into hammock time. 

Fun & Play: Reliving the weekend, over and over. Hard to stop saying AMAZING in every sentence. Happy coworkers. Much-of-team lunch out to Raaper's to eat with Mary, and a LOT of people came - 12 of us. Apparently we all needed to see happy faces and get the hell out of the building.

Stress Management: God, this job. It's chaos all over again. A much better chaos than two months ago, but still: infuriating madness. So many hot to-do items, and that always makes me want to cry because how can I possibly get it all done now, and perfectly, and not let anyone down? And it all hit me in the afternoon when I was already feeling brain dead. So incredibly draining. 

Nature: Luckily, cats & dogs & hammocks make everything better, as do my various beloveds. Chatting with my people always makes me better. How did I ever get so spoiled?

Sunday, September 7

Nutrition: Very little appetite today. Very strange. Wish I had been calculating as I went, because this was way too low.
  • 7a-Renola, coffee
  • 8a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee
  • 1p-Cobb salad, kombucha
  • 3-can caffeinated Zevia
  • 645-yam chili, 1 toast
  • calories 1475: p 375, c 650, f 500

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 10p-645a, 100% quality. I would absolutely agree with that. I felt like I never twitched until 630a. Hoped I could fall back for more, but no dice. Instead I spent an hour outside soaking up even more nature. Lovely beyond belief.

Healthy Movement: Um, not much. Body feeling fairly decent, little bit of tightness in glutes from the climbs, but moderate; and the knees/IT bands didn't whine at all, which was my bigger concern. I even dashed up the hill from rocks to cabin, & back down, to deliver Brian's sandals, and that felt perfectly fine. However, the many hours in the car ride back did make me insane. We stopped twice to get out and MOVE and I was happy to stretch out the upper back in particular. Nothing to do with the SHT, and everything to do with hating sitting in a car.

Fun & Play: We all had a long, slow, leisurely morning with a full drag-out to the 11am check-out time. We even returned down to the rocks a second time for the crew picture-taking session. It was so impossibly hard to leave. I want to live in that spot, forever and ever. And ever. The drive back was okay, though; we kept the music loud, stopped at the Duluth Grill with Shannon & Greg before our final crew departure, and continued trading fresh tidbits on the race. Our second pit stop was at the Avon rest stop, where Brian stood in the lake and I stretched out on a fallen tree trunk. I mean, gawd, what hippies!

This was pretty much a perfect weekend. The only improvement could have been getting Brian an even higher, more amazing finish; other than that, nothing could've made it better! Happy little Hoppe girl.

Saturday, September 6

Nutrition: I was writing everything down but not tracking. Had no idea where I'd come in for calories, and absolutely didn't care. How does one begin to adjust calorie needs when not sleeping a wink? I just ate by feel. But whoa, did I get sick of snacky food between these two days. I was starving, literally an empty growling stomach, when I went off on my hike with Brian. I had expected running so I didn't want to eat much food beforehand, and then all of my stuff went back to the cabin during my run, and none of it was there when I finished. Hungry & miserable until I encountered the restaurant at the finish line. Most deliciousest meal ever! Also, capped off the day with hot dogs over the campfire. I mean, really, how exactly right is that?
  • 130a-half fruit leather, partial can caffeinated Zevia, 4 Pro Bar chews
  • (230a-4-hour hike)
  • during hike-sweet potato baby food w/ salt tab, sl bacon, applesauce w salt tab
  • 930a-2 eggs, bacon, hashbrowns, coffee
  • 12p-pork jerky, Kind bar, rice crackers
  • 330-summer sausage, rice crackers, apple chips, can caffeinated Zevia
  • 6-salad w avocado
  • 9-2 hot dogs, 1 bun
  • calories 2925: p 900, c 1400, f 625

Sleep: No attempt at Friday-overnight sleep. Post-run, I kind of caught a catnap in the car at the next aid station. Super uncomfortable and jagged, did not actually WANT to sleep (and potentially miss Brian & Justen) but was so exhausted that I couldn't stay awake - but I woke up about every 10 minutes to look for our runners. Basically, it was useless and left me even more miserable. In the afternoon, after returning to the cabin, I took a pillow and sleeping bag down to the rocks. Didn't fall asleep, but did completely enjoy about an hour of relaxing and sunshine and just plain old nature.

Healthy Movement: From about 1:30a onward I stood next to the bonfire at my starting aid station, waiting for Brian & Greg to arrive. At 2:30a we started my two legs, which took four hours. Brian was in rough shape: not up for running anything but very easy, non-technical patches - of which there were very, very few. The SHT is not a kind trail. I absolutely loved it, though. Hiking at night was really quite enjoyable, nice & cool. So beautiful. Happy to talk with & entertain Brian for hours, and be the lucky one who got to bring him up out of his low. It didn't take much effort, actually, because our stretch was easier than his prior one, and he rediscovered his mental strength pretty quickly. What's insane is that he hiked faster than me even with 85+ miles on his legs, what a fucking MACHINE!

At one point Brian stopped me for a half minute to turn off our lights and just soak up the night sky. No moon, zero ambient light, it was THE MOST AMAZING EVER; I have looked at the sky a million times and never seen it like that! That 30s alone made the entire weekend worth it. I could have stayed there for hours. Well, obviously not, I was certainly going to help Brian keep moving, but Jesus Aitch I need more views like that in my life! We saw a wee woodland critter scampering up the tree, stopped to inspect it, no idea what it was. Got to enjoy the sunrise, and at the top of Carlton Peak, Brian paused me again, again just to admire the view: Lake Superior glittering in the rising sun, a valley full of trees glowing, and zero signs of civilization. Perfection. Once again, I could have sat there for hours. Incredible. A big part of me wanted to keep going with Brian on his next legs, I was feeling good enough to keep trekking, but it was Justen's turn to take over - plus, with two miles to go, Brian ignored the pain and blasted on down to the finish, and I probably wouldn't have kept up. Even with 101 miles on him, he would've been faster. God. I am so grateful that he lets me join in on his adventures, because they are so motherfucking EPIC.

Post-run, as I said, was miserable and uncomfortable in the car. At the finish line, two hours before Brian was due in, I got breakfast in the restaurant which helped a lot. Then I was standing around until Brian raced on in like a champion. After finally showering (the highest highlight of my entire life, sorry hubs, parents, etc!), we all laid around in the sun cheering in the other runners and letting Brian soak up well-deserved congrats from, oh, EVERYONE. I literally laid on the cobblestones to absorb the sun, stretch the low back & hips a lot, they were tight, all else was good. Once we got back to the cabin, I went to the rocks for my nap attempt. Also soaked my feet in chilled lake water, which felt lovely. After that, stood a few hours helping make supper & chat, then sitting next to the bonfire.

Fun & Play: Everything. Other than the few hours after my run, during which I was a sweaty gross unshowered mess, stomach churning in hunger, entirely exhausted, completely miserable & a giant fat baby about it, all of it was perfection. And I probably wouldn't even trade that misery off, because I feel like I deserved to do a little suffering if Bran was doing that much!

Nature: 22 hours of my day outside? Yes, please! Trees, dirt, rocks, roots, lake, lakeshore, campfires, wondertastic views, and being in love with every second of it. Happy, happy girl.

Friday, September 5

Nutrition: Really tough to figure out how & how much to eat today. No movement done today, but not going to sleep, pacing leg to begin anywhere between 1-3am, need calories & need caffeine. I think I did a decent job, other than being physically hungry by the time I was pacing (see Saturday).
  • 530a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee
  • 930-half salad, avocado, bottle KeVita
  • 1-summer sausage, crackers, Larabar
  • 330-yam chili, 2 toast, kind bar
  • 530-Paleo bar, applesauce
  • 730-can caffeinated Zevia
  • 830-half bag pork jerky
  • calories 2650: p 850, c 1100, f 800

Sleep: 6.5 hours of sleep, 1030p-5a, 80% quality. Much much worse, felt I was tossing & turning all night long. Bleah. Tried to nap at 4:30 but it was completely impossible, waaaay too keyed up about Brian kicking ass. 

Healthy Movement: Quite creaky when I got up, but better than expected after all of yesterday's sitting in the car & the super shitty sleep. Shivering at the aid stations was not fun. Tough to find a good balance between standing to avoid getting stiff, but sitting to save the legs & feet for pacing.

Fun & Play: Race day excitement! Nice long time to chill at the cabin after we sent Brian off at the starting line, got to listen to a Jim Jeffries one-hour special while we chilled: hilariously dirty. Thanks, Justen! Super incredibly fun watching Brian completely kicking ass. So much fun hanging out with the crew - they helped elevate this weekend pretty high on my list of "best vacations," fo sho.

Nature: After sending off our runner, I sat on the rocks by Lake Superior for a nice long time. Perfect. Beautimonious! Much time at aid stations in the lovely woods. Soaked up the nature as much and as deeply and as thoroughly as I possibly could. Winter, she nears. The bitch.

Thursday, September 4

Nutrition: Hard to keep up calories today. Too much driving. Made me glad I tracked, so I ate a little more when we returned to the cabin.

~~5a-2 eggs, bacon, 5 Brussels sprouts, 2 toast, coffee
~~(7-Holea session)
~~1030-jerky, Larabar, coffee
~~3-half jerky, kind bar, apple, zevia
~~730-half salad, bag apple chips
~~9-2 hot dogs
~~Calories 1825: p 875, c 600, f 350

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 915p-445a, 83% quality. Choppy. No good. 

Healthy Movement: Session early, felt tough again. Sitting (driving) for 5 hours in a car made me batshit. 

Fun & Play: PTO! NSS time. Drive up to the race with Brian was fun, lots of AC/DC. And then our cabin turned out to be fucking amazing. Working out race day logistic. Slept with the windows open, the lake sounded like the ocean, and nice & cool. Absolute pure perfection. 

Wednesday, September 3

Nutrition: I have been failing at veggies this week. Remedied today by finally eating a big fat salad.
  • 515a-2 eggs, bacon, 4 Brussels sprouts, 2 toast, coffee
  • 745-coffee w CM
  • 9-black cherry pork jerky
  • 1030-mixed nuts
  • (1145-2.4m run)
  • 1230-yam chili
  • 115-banana
  • 330-lime coconut crisps
  • 6-salad w avocado, dinner roll
  • calories 2250: p 450, c 600, f 1100
Acne: Fuck. Me. Really? Nuts can cause acne? Le sigh. I've suspected them before. Many times. Never actually made a complete test, because, well, I eat them all the time. So if they are a problem, it would be a quantity thing. Or some specific ones. But I eat them All. The. Time. Hence: Fuck. Me. Yeah, they would be easy to cut out, wouldn't miss them that much, but...where else do I find such easy, portable calories?

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 9p-5a, 84% quality. Took ages to fall asleep, and was in/out 4a onward. Yuck.

Healthy Movement: Got up with tight lower legs & feet, all else feeling good; they felt fine within minutes, just like to keep tabs on them. Forgot PT last night AND this morning. Did class warm-up, movement felt great; also spent a bit of time sitting down in third-world squat with a KB in hand, which helped me balance - that felt awesome. Began feeling yesterday's squats mid-morning, sore thighs. Run went okay, a somewhat-crappy one so the perfect time to get it out of the way. Really want to feel good on my pacing duties. I am determined to be a force for good in Brian's race, not a pain in his ass. (That's the SHT's job!)

Fun & Play: United Way fundraiser. Lunchtime trails. Two quick chats with Brian about race stuff today, when many days I don't see him at all. Love notes drafted for Shawn & Andy's drop bags. Quiet night at home to pack All The Shit.

Temperance: Today I unsubscribed from the Boston Marathon email list. HAPPILY. So very, very glad that is no longer a stressor in my life.

Tuesday, September 2

  • 530a-2 eggs, bacon, 4 Brussels sprouts, 2 toast, coffee
  • 8a-coffee w coconut milk
  • 930a-mixed nuts
  • 11-couple strips black cherry pork jerky
  • (12-Dustin session)
  • 130-yam chili, bottle Kevita
  • 4-apple
  • 530-2 hot dogs w mustard on a bun, brownie
  • calories 2125: p 575, c 800, f 750

: Today my face makes me want to cry. I don't feel fit for public viewing even with makeup on. Sadness. I briefly thought about going back on drugs for the acne, that's how awful it's looking. However, I decided that if I can just tough it out another 6 weeks, I'll be able to see if it's related to running. After the 50k I intend to fully devote myself to lifting, no runs longer than 30 minutes, only maybe the occasional hour-long ROUS run on a Saturday morning (when not everyone in town is marathon training). See what happens. Better than resorting to drugs.

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 83% quality. Took ages to fall asleep; tired but not sleepy. Got up at 930p to fetch a Benadryl; solid until maybe 3a, then tossing & turning after that. Got up tired. 

Healthy Movement: Some left core stiffness only. Didn't do PT last night, forgot. Didn't do this morning until 8a in Well. Session was okay, all just a little bit "off." Right hip pinch didn't show up, giant HOORAY, but had a little bit of left-lower-back ache (the stress spot, what?) and left elbow whined a bit as well. What the with the who now? Had a PT appt that mainly stretched the core area. Felt great.

Fun & Play: Session with Lisa. Time reading outside in the sunshine.

Monday, September 1

Nutrition: Last night I broke one of my biggest nutrition rules: I was very hungry, but didn't eat. It was after my run & shower, and I was literally about to brush my teeth & crash. I knew I could get away with it because I'd had plenty of calories, just physically hungry because I was coming up on 6+ hours since my last meal. And I woke up feeling fine. But normally, if I'm hungry, I eat. Always.
  • 7a-2 eggs, bacon, 5 Brussels sprouts, 2 toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 1030-mixed nuts
  • (1p-nap)
  • 3-hot dog w mustard, kombucha, mixed nuts, brownie 
  • 615-2 hot dogs on a bun w kraut & mustard, lemon super cookies
  • calories 2325: p 525, c 900, f 900

Sleep: 6.5 hours in bed, 1215p-645a, 66% quality. In late due to night run. In/out from 5a onward but managed to squeak in another sleep cycle. Napped 115-3p, like a champion.

Healthy Movement: Tight lower legs, somewhat tight left hip/core. Right hip feels fine. Did PT just before my nap. Taking a full rest day.

Fun & Play: This morning the cats were both outside, with all dogs inside. It gave me great joy to see them dashing through the yard without regard to Hank's position. Happy little fur babies! Worked an hour at NSS while Holea & boytoy were there. Nap time. Packing for Superior. Wild hailstorm out of nowhere. Lazy TV time.

Sunday, August 31

Nutrition: Last night I bought Brussels sprouts for the first time in ages. Why haven't I been buying these? Delicious addition to breakfast!
  • 7a-2 eggs, bacon, Brussels sprouts, 2 toast, coffee w coconut milk
  • (930-hulking session)
  • 1045-brownie
  • 1215p-mixed nuts, kombucha 
  • 415-hot dog w kraut & mustard, SB&J bun
  • 545-3 ribs
  • 945-4 chews 
  • (10-5.3m run)
  • calories 2575: p 600, c 925, f 1050

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 945p-630a, 89% quality. Pretty solid, and was able to wake up slowly on my own. Lovely! Napped 2-4p anyway, because I could.

Healthy Movement: Left Achilles strangely tight upon waking, but went away quickly. Right hip pinch just barely there, left hip fairly good. Did some basement hulking where I discovered the right hip is pretty bad after all, some PT stretches made it angry (modified them), and I couldn't find a pain-free squat at all, even at BW. Fuck! Also the left forearm was back to hating TGUs even though on Thursday they were okay with the same KB size. What the hell is going on there? BLARGH. It's finally big-goal season and now I'm full of issues. So frustrating. At least the bench went well, first time it's been decent at home in quite a while.

Right hip improved with the nap & it didn't even give a whimper on the night run. Left core area did kick in around mile 3, disappointing, but that is more of a dull ache that I know I can run through on race day if needed. Didn't do full PT in eve, just the left core stretch. Too tired.

Fun & Play: A great night's sleep. Lazy day at home. Pooches. Nap time. Backyard bonfire. Night run with a lovely group.