Wednesday, July 4

6a-c reg, supps
7a-3.48m walk (65 min) in Vibrams
9a-c reg w stevia, few taste-testing bites of pork tenderloin & baked beans, s Ultima
12p (ish)-hot dog, 3oz pork tenderloin, Larabar, c fruit, 2 cans Diet Coke
430p (ish)-2 hot dogs, 2s SP chips, .5c pineapple, few snap peas, can Diet Coke, fiber supps
530p-1.87m walk (34 min) in Merrells
7p-Uberbar, supps
Throughout day-3 quarts water

 Limited myself to afternoon snacking with everyone else only, plus an Uberbar post-sweaty-damned-walk.

Sleep: 9 hours in bed. Up in wee hours wide awake (husband, cats), hit b/r, took a while to fall back. Woke naturally about 5, dozed a good hour.

Body: All-over achey when I got up. Upper back, thighs a bit tight/sore. Walks both felt great, was neat to realize how much I could feel abs working as I messed around with my form.

Brain: Doing well, walk was good me. Peace and quiet and beauty. After that, pretty busy with setup of food, garage, etc, and also a shitty bonus: upset with husband for not coming home til late last night...then more hurt when he offered zero apology after I told him I was mad. Are all men this oblivious, or just mine? Had a nice little sobfest telling him that it feels like he never wants to spend time with me, which makes me feel awful. I do suspect this has been a part of the stress in the past month.

Parade/people over was a good time, but I got mad/sad again at clean-up, as Hop was busy boozing with his buddies and continued the party over at the neighbor's/Sidewalks without a word to me. Top buddy: his coworker, with whom he already spends 50-60 hours per week. So once hurts. As did how many of my bestest friends did not come over for the parade, without a word about it. More hurts. This made me want to eat, naturally, but I wrote this on my hand: Being strong is the best revenge.  It helped keep me from turning to food for comfort. I also made a trip to Alex for CSA shares, which meant I was out of the house. Got back at 730, straight into the shower.

Here is your country. Cherish these natural wonders, cherish the natural resources, cherish the history and romance as a sacred heritage, for your children and your children's children. Do not let selfish men or greedy interests skin your country of its beauty, its riches or its romance.
-Theodore Roosevelt

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