5a-2 fr eggs, 3oz pork roast, .5oz roasted nuts, .5oz raw cashews, 4T coconut butter, c reg, supps
615a-c reg w 2T MimicCreme
730a-Americano w SF syrup
10a-mini Larabar, 2c decaf
2p-c roasted cauliflower (that I thought was walleye when I grabbed it), salad w HB egg & .5 avocado & balsamic, bag pork jerky, mini Larabar
4p-4c decaf w 2T coconut creamer
Throughout day-1.5 quarts water
Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed. In at 930, a half hour late, then wide effing awake at 430a. Blech, WHY? Dozed for a bit, but just got up at 5a. Felt fairly good though brain a bit low.
Body: Feels good. Shin the same as yesterday. Right foot seems normal again. Neck about the same as yesterday, and not bothered by snatches.
Sunday's lifting plan, which I decided on while stretching with Joy, will be to deadlift only 135 for all sets, thinking form form form. I read Mike Robertson's ridonkulously detailed deadlift post and picked up a few things I will keep in my mind. I like having a plan. Feels better.
Brain: Overate big time at breakfast. Cravings. Dunno why, probably sleep. I at least feel like I can easily choose fat sources over carb sources, haven't got any ZOMG BREAD cravings going on. But I should probably stop buying coconut butter. I focused on acceptance / build a bridge & get over it / did what I could to eat properly the rest of the day. I also think a bit of the MEHness is due to NSS being gone...as if a full week without Dustin is going to be enough to backslide me into a weak, fat carbaholic. (Though to be fair, that did kind of happen when I was gone to Boston. But I'm not on vacation. I will be fine.)
Tearing open another callus, while maddening and angering and frustrating to add that setback, feels pretty bad ass. Good for the brain.
Habit: A little tougher today, for no real reason other than the MEHness. I'm wearing my thermometer jeans with a snug top, which I wouldn't have done 2 months ago. So look at that, big improvement! And yet I rationalize with a "Well, maybe this is like the 3rd jeans wearing since they were washed and that's why." I wish that voice would STFU.
So I went back to the "I love my body just as it is right now." thinking with these fill-in-the-blanks: -I'm strong. -I am smaller than I was 8 weeks ago. -Sweet shoulders! -I'm healthy.
Priorities: KITC event with Emma. I love hanging out with her; she makes me feel like the cool aunt.
WOD: Recharge. Just like rejuvenate the other day. Funny timing on these, as Joy is taking a second deload week in a row, and I'm feeling like maybe I should be deloading. Things are great in my life but I feel very MEH in my brain, and it's being reflected in my deadlifts at least. Other workouts seem to be progressing on schedule (Didn't I just run in Merrells with no adverse effects?!), yet I still feel like they aren't (Well, you know, I walked 1/3 of that run). What is that about? Anyway, the key to it is not to stress about it, but just observe what's going on, do what I can today to put myself on the right track, whatever that may be.
"The food you eat can be either the safest and most powerful form of medicine or the slowest form of poison.” - Dr. Ann Wigmore