630a-c reg w/ stevia - habit
730a-Americano w/ SF syrup - craving
815a-2c decaf w/ stevia - habit
11a-2c sugar plum spice tea - chilly
430p-bottle diet A&W - craving
630p-9oz ribeye topped w mushrooms & onions & coconut aminos, salad (greens, tomatoes, radishes, balsamic), pint coconut ice cream*, bottle diet A&W, supps - anniversary supper
730p-2c decaf w stevia - chilly
9p-carnitas sampling - craving
Throughout day-3 quarts water
Fasted until my super deliciously indulgent supper. Hungry at 930a & 1230p, thoroughly chilled 1030a onward.
*Tastes like normal true ice cream, proper texture and everything. Not impressed? I haven't had ice cream in almost two years. However...one pint is 960 freaking calories!
Today was not about fat loss. But it was a good lesson in how to end a celebratory day near maintenance without feeling the least bit deprived or guilty.
Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed. Woke for b/r at 2a, but fell back fairly easily. Dozed in/out for the last hour.
Body: Feeling good, a bit heavy all over. Workout was a struggle. Fasted? Sleep for the week? Yesterday's deadlifts? Whatever. Pulls were back to even with Monday, that's something.
Acne: Been forgetting to mention my face has freaked out lately. Saturday breakfast may have had soy, rib sauces likely had soy, then I ate two of those rolls w/ corn ingredients on Sunday...god damn. I would trade the acne for a digestive reaction if I could. Acne lasts for motherfucking weeks. Sucks.
Brain: Good! 5-year anniversary today. Isn't Hop the luckiest man ever? Had planned on a Red Lobster visit, but we grilled instead and will hit RL on Sunday when it should be emptier & we aren't so rushed to get there.
Simplifying is not necessarily about getting rid of everything we've worked so hard for. It's about making wise choices among the things we now have to choose from. It's about recognizing that trying to have it all has gotten in the way of enjoying the things which do add to our happiness and well-being. It's about deciding what's important to us, and gracefully letting go of the things that aren't. Simplifying is not necessarily about moving to Walden Pond and sending the laundry home to mother. It's about simplifying our lives right where we are. It's about learning to reduce the laundering chore, along with all the other chores and frequently self-imposed obligations, so we can begin to make the contributions we all, in our heart of hearts, want to make to our family, to our community, to our environment, and to the world.
-Elaine St James