5a-fr egg, 2oz ground pork, grapefruit, c reg w/ stevia, supps
630a-equipment mania class
730a-oz butter toffee almonds, 2c reg
10a-T coconut flakes, 2T Sunbutter, supps
1145a(LAPW)-shell-less taco salad (iceberg, oz shrimp, 2oz chicken, salsa, pico, tomatoes, black olives), c reg
330p-oz butter toffee almonds, vanilla protein shake w/ BCAAs, supps
7p-salad w/ balsamic, 2s tilapia & onions, sm apple, mini Chick-o-Stick, supps
-Kip-like AFB pulls, am: 4, 3, 4, 3
-Kip-like AFB pulls, pm: 3x3 (awkward timing)
Weight: 137.4 lbs, 24.3% fat - crazy swing in fat calc means water is wacky which means overall weight is wacky. Ignore!
Sleep: In bed 7.25 hours, not enough, but it was solid all the way. Thanks, NyQuil!
Habit: 25% fail. Only got 3 quarts down. Two loooong meetings that effed up my typical schedule. And no desire to catch up just before bed and need a 3am b/r visit.
Misc: I got the best text ever this morning: On our way home! Aw. They'll either be home Thursday afternoon or else Friday morning, depending on whether they drive straight through. Yay!
I think I've got this cold just about licked. I felt better yesterday afternoon than I did in the morning, and I felt a TON better this morning than yesterday. Keeping up the sleep, water, & high quality nutrition (which frankly should be an everyday thing, not just a sick-day thing). I'd bet money that I feel pretty damn good tomorrow and back to normal by Friday!
At the LAPW meeting today I chatted with Jodi Meade about the mental challenge in backsliding and how difficult it can be to get back on track, maybe even more difficult than when you first did it. Even though you know exactly what to do and exactly how to do it, you waste all this fucking energy just in thinking. You think about how you've gone backward and beat yourself up for it and run full-tilt down an awful shame spiral for no good reason. (Meanwhile, you could be using that energy to re-reach that goal.) She thanked me for sharing my challenges, said that it was good to hear it wasn't just her.
Of course it's not just her! Where is our support for each other in these situations? Why don't people talk about it? Why do people brag about their achievements but keep their blunders hidden in the closet?
Share your fuck-ups, folks! Bare them to the world! NO ONE IS PERFECT.
The more you realize that everyone else is full of failures and insecurities and mistakes, the more you realize that it's okay for you to do the same.
But don't let your past be the cause for even more excuses today.
Future you deserves better than that.
More excellent questions like this can be found here.