August 29

GOTD: I can’t remember what it was, as I got it on Thursday afternoon! Don’t care. Fast day. Freezing all day, and crashy post-yoga. And yet it wasn't enough to get me to my targeted calories for the week, thanks to the shitty mental state all weekend.

545a-c reg, multi, adrenal, fish oil, Met, 4 FiberSmart
645a-c reg
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
10a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
1230p-fish oil, adrenal
230p-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
8p-NC, Met, reds, yeast, fish oil, adrenal, D, 4 FiberSmart
915p-5HTP, Tyrosine, Benadryl

Totals: 185 cal, 6g fat (0 sat), 24g carbs (9 fiber), 5g protein – goal of 1500

Week's averages:
- 1981 cal, 78 fat (17 sat) 36%, 230g carbs (34 fiber) 46%, 94g protein 19% - goal of 1900 calories
- Up 14%, 239 cal avg, 1669 total, from last week
- Burned 3270, up 758 from last week
- 2011 avg: 2026 cal, 89g fat (19 sat), 184g carbs (33 fiber), 131g protein

Weight: down .8 lbs...I'll take it!

August 28

GOTD: stretch 10 min.

7a-fried egg, chick saus, 2 rusks, 2c reg, multi, adrenal, fish oil, FiberSmart, Met
10a-2 sl bread, T bb balsamic sauce, few SP chunks
 12p-almond butter ball
1p(during walk)-mini Larabar, Ultima
3p(PWO)-egg white omelet, stir fry, cukes, carrots, hummus, c grapes, FiberSmart, adrenal, fish oil
5p(during walk)-Ultima
7p-steak w/ shrooms, onions, teriyaki sauce, asparagus, fish oil, adrenal, Met, yeast, reds, FiberSmart
8p-almond ice cream bar, NC, D

Totals: 1726 cal, 56g fat (11 sat), 204g carbs (39 fiber), 108g protein – goal of 1800

I ate by feel this day, didn't calc calories as I went, and somehow that worked! I believe the key is I avoided pretty much all grains...digestive issues.

August 27

GOTD: have a high carb day.

430a-2 fried eggs, chick saus, c decaf, fish oil, adrenal, multi, Met
5a-c decaf w/ stevia
10a-2.5 pancakes w/ bb balsamic sauce, c reg, FiberSmart
1045a-c reg w/ almond milk
1145a-Pure organic bar
1p-sausage & bbq sauce, wild rice salad, quinoa salad, fresh fruit, Wheat Thins, trail mix
4p-fish oil, adrenal
630p-chicken strips & bbq sauce
11p-fish oil, adrenal, D, Met, NC, reds, yeast, FiberSmart

Totals: 2618 cal, 131g fat (31 sat), 264g carbs (25 fiber), 107g protein – goal of 2400

August 26

GOTD: buy & portion out a bag of kettle corn – didn’t do it!

7a-egg white omelet w/ salsa, crumpet w/ bb balsamic sauce, c reg, fish oil, multi, Met
730a-c reg w/ almond milk, stevia
10a-¼ bag light kettle corn, freeze dried blueberries
12p-sm apple, 1/3 pb cookie, fish oil, adrenal
1230p-taco salad
4p-carrots & hummus
6p-taco salad
8p-¾ pb cookie, fish oil, adrenal, 4 FiberSmart, NC, D

Totals: 2258 cal, 95g fat (17 sat), 285g carbs (41 fiber), 70g protein – goal of 1900

Went out to eat for both lunch & supper, so this wasn't so bad...but both times I ate the entire taco salad shell when I had previously decided I wouldn't. Too addicting!

August 25

GOTD-skip a meal, which I was already planning to do for supper! But I failed. In my training session, I pissed off my lower back muscles, and so I was down in the dumps mentally AND physically. We all know what that usually leads to...and it did.

6a-fried egg, 2 Canadian bacon, 3 mini pitas, 3oz maple walnut bread, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi, D, Met, yeast, reds, NC
7a-Aleve, c reg, 6oz almond milk, pb cookie
8a-1.5c decaf w/ choc almond milk
10a-3.25oz pork jerky
1p(PWO)-Honey Nut Cheerios w/ almond milk, chick saus, adrenal, fish oil
330p-chick saus
6p-cukes & humms, peas & hummus
7p-cabbage soup, fish oil, adrenal, Met, yeast, reds
8p-apple, half-fucking-jar of BnPB, NC, D

Totals: 2988 cal, 99g fat (22 sat), 352g carbs (48 fiber), 150g protein – goal of 1900

Without the PB binge, I would have come in at 2288, still too high, but at least reasonable. Fucking brain!

August 24

GOTD: skip a meal, super handy, since I had biometric testing first thing in the morning & thus was planning a fast anyway!

8a-1.5c reg, fish oil, adrenal, Aleve
10a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
1p-chick saus, English muffin, 2T Sunbutter, bite of ginger cookie, 1.5c decaf, 3oz almond milk, stevia, fish oil, adrenal
330p-Wonder Bar
615p(PWO)-mini Larabar
7p-adrenal, fish oil
730p-(out for mom's birthday)-fried cauliflower, fries, onion rings, club sandwich (and I simply said, "No cheese or anything, totally dairy free, please" and it was not even a big deal - and why would it be?!)
830p-apple
10p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1935 cal, 90g fat (17 sat), 211g carbs (34 fiber), 71g protein – goal of 1900

Big victory of the day: I was craving dessert after supper. I considered a pb cookie, an ice cream sandwich, and an apple, and I chose the apple because it was what I wanted!

August 23

GOTD: stretch 10 minutes - I changed it to foam rolling instead, as I was more in need of that!

Day one of maintenance week! Average of 1900 calories/day is the goal, so there's plenty of room to squeeze in all the stuff I've been craving.

5a-egg white omelet w/ salsa, 4oz tri tip, c decaf w/ stevia, Met, fish oil, adrenal, multi, Aleve
615a-c decaf, 4oza almond milk, stevia
715a-1.5c reg
10a-orange, 6 almonds
1p(PWO)-6oz tri tip, stir fry, adrenal
4p-8oz peas
6p-Aleve
7p(girls’ night)-raw veg, 2s pretzel crisps, pork steak, sweet corn, potatoes, fresh fruit
930p-peanut butter cookie, D, fish oil, adrenal, NC
1015p-Tyrosine, 5HTP, 4 FiberSmart

Totals: 2154 cal, 69g fat (20 sat), 267g carbs (41 fiber), 144g protein – goal of 1900

Read This: BAMF Athletics

This blog post gave me a new word: STRENGTHY. I like!

Fuck moderation.

Favorite line: Since when has anyone aspired to be middle of the road?

Read This: Cookie Monster

Got five minutes? I personally guarantee this read to be worth your time.

August 22

6a-fried egg, 2 sl Canadian bacon, 2 sl WW toast, 2t honey mustard, c reg, Met, fish oil, adrenal, multi
8a-c reg, .5c decaf, .5 fish oil
11a-apple, chick saus, 1.5c decaf
12p-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
2p-stir fry, fish oil, 1.5c decaf w/ stevia
4p-chick saus, 1.5c decaf w/ stevia
730p(PWO)-Aleve, fried egg, 2 sl Canadian bacon, 2 sl WW toast, 2t honey mustard, c decaf, Met, fish oil, adrenal, multi
830p-NC, 2 FiberSmart

Totals: 1089 cal, 35g fat (9 sat), 122g carbs (33 fiber), 67g protein – goal of 1600 (but making up for Sat/Sun)

The week's averages came in downright awesome:
1742 cal, 69 fat (14 sat) 35%, 172g carbs (35 fiber) 39%, 111g protein 25%
Down 3%, 47 cal avg, 330 total, from last week
Burned 2512, down 2667 from last week
2011 avg: 2036 cal, 89g fat (19 sat), 183g carbs (33 fiber), 132g protein

And my weigh-in this morning was +1.4 lbs.

Seriously? Lowest average calorie intake since a FULL YEAR AGO, and I can SEE visible improvements and it gives me this shit? FUCK YOU, SCALE!

I’m going with water weight…but why, I don’t know.

And on the other hand, fat mass says -2.2 lbs. I like that number, let's focus on that.

August 21

Again, no GOTD, but I did finally realize I had forgotten. So I did my 10 minutes of stretching from Friday, and focused on eating just enough to feel good, while keeping a lid on my ravenous impulses - I put on 11.64 trail miles in the morning, so the calorie level I achieved is actually pretty impressive.

6a-fried egg, 4oz steak, crumpet w/ balsamic sauce, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi
7a-c reg
830a(pre-run)-3oz Tanka Bites
10a(mid-run)-mini Larabar
throughout run-Ultima
1115a(PWO)-Ultima
1p-6oz tri tip, c raw green beans, 2 sm carrots, 4T hummus, fish oil, adrenal
330p-5oz beef ribs, 4 mini pitas, 2T balsamic sauce
6p-stir fry
8p-trail mix bar, fish oil, adrenal, D, NC, Met, yeast, reds

Totals: 2065 cal, 71g fat (23 sat), 215g carbs (39 fiber), 149g protein – goal of 1800

August 20

GOTD: never grabbed one as I left work at noon on Friday. But I was up at 430am to go to Minneapolis for an all-day workshop*, so the entire day was off-kilter, tired, weird eating, etc. Had I created a goal, it would have been: no binge eating. And I did succeed in that!

530a-3oz Tanka Bites, c reg
7a-kettle corn rice cakes
930a-Larabar, Ultima
12p-trail mix bar, 1.5oz jerky
230p-trail mix bar, Ultima
4p-1.5oz jerky
6p-1.5c decaf, oz bag kettle corn
8p-samples of chips, crackers, Teddy Grahams, slice olive loaf, c watermelon
920p-stir fry, fish oil, adrenal, 2s Met, reds, yeast, D, NC, multi
10p-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 2069 cal, 62g fat (13 sat), 283g carbs (28 fiber), 120g protein – goal of 1750

*Assuming I passed the test, I will be the newest Group Fitness Instructor at Tastefully Simple!

August 19

GOTD: 10 minutes stretching. Did maybe two minutes post-run, because I was all out-of-whack from my normal schedule, location, etc. Terrible excuse.

6a-fried egg, beets & sweets, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi
715a-c reg w/ almond milk, stevia
8a-c decaf w/ almond milk
10a-pretzel bagel w/ T Sunbutter
1p (PWO)-2 sl bread, can chicken, pumpkin protein bar, fish oil, adrenal, Ultima
4p-2 chick saus
7p (wine bar)-tomato basil bruschetta, decaf tea
8p-chick saus, c cherries
830p-c strawberries, fish oil, adrenal
9p-c cukes
10p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1727 cal, 62g fat (12 sat), 151g carbs (26 fiber), 100g protein – goal of 1750

August 18

GOTD: Eat nothing processed. I skipped this rule for my team's potluck lunch, as I'm sick & tired of being noticeably dieting, and I think a sandwich made up of two slices of low-cal bread & 2 slices of lunch meat is pretty damn minor as far as cheating goes. Plus, I did have two no-processed-carbs days already this week, so I justified bucking the spreadsheet system just a little bit. Hey, it's my fucking system, all right?

6a-fried egg, beets & sweets (OMG deliciousness), c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi, Met
8a-1.5c decaf
930a-12 almonds
10a-12 almonds
1215p(PWO)-sandwich, veggies, pickles
215p-fish oil, adrenal
330p-2 chicken wings
7p-chicken breast, salad, fish oil, adrenal, D, Met, NC, reds, yeast
8p-c strawberries
930p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1796 cal, 80g fat (17 sat), 150g carbs (41 fiber), 124g protein – goal of 1850

August 17

GOTD: Foam roll entire lower body. Check done, and very much needed!

6a-2 fried eggs, chick saus, 2 rusk toasts, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi
7a-c reg w/ almond milk, stevia, cinn
745a-c decaf w/ almond milk
10a-plum, 12 almonds
1p-salad, chick saus, med apple, MiO, fish oil, adrenal
2p-MiO
330p-chick saus
4p-12 almonds
7p-2-egg omelet w/ salsa, salad w/ balsamic, c decaf, fish oil, adrenal, multi, Met, reds, yeast, D
8p-Kind Nut Delight bar, NC
930p-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1679 cal, 84g fat (16 sat), 146g carbs (37 fiber), 91g protein – goal of 1750 (made up for going over on Tuesday)

August 16

GOTD: low carb day (again! damn)

6a-2-egg omelet w/ chick saus & salsa, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi, Met
7a-c reg w/ almond milk, cinn
830a-c decaf w/ almond milk
10a-plum, 12 almonds
115p(PWO)-tilapia, stir fry, adrenal, fish oil, MiO*
330p-trail mix bar
6p-salad w/ balsamic, 9oz rib eye, fish oil, adrenal, Met, NC, D
830p-nut butter ball**
930p-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1822 cal, 86g fat (11 sat), 142g carbs (39 fiber), 126g protein – goal of 1750

Went over my goal becauase I thought it was 1850. Oops!

*MiO is delicious. I have the sweet tea flavor and freaking LOVE IT. Downside: pure chemicals (but not aspartame).
**Betty Lou's Nut Butter Balls are quite tasty. So far I've had the Cashew Pecan & Spirulina Ginseng flavors, both delicious. Downside: 170 cal each and not very large.

Read This: SINS

Marsha over at Strong is the New Skinny wrote a great post about loving yourself. I should have read this about 5 times a day for the last few months...read it here.

August 15

GOTD: Have a low-carb day.

For me, still in a baby-stepped diet phase, that means no processed carbs, no starchy vegetables, and limited fruit. (A year ago, "low carb" would've meant 50-100g, but I'm not there yet.)

And I justified the carby hummus snack because I was too low on calories otherwise; and a full ounce of almonds wasn't going to be as satisfying or nutritious as crunchy cukes & hummus! I did consider ending the day at a super sweet deficit, but I've learned that can bite me in the ass later. I've gotten MUCH smarter in this diet phase.

And the results speak for themselves: week 3, down 1.2 lbs. Woot!

6a-fried egg, chick saus, c reg, fish oil, multi, adrenal, Met
7a-c reg w/ almond milk, cinn, stevia
8a-c decaf w/ almond milk, stevia
930a-12 almonds
10a-med apple
1p-stir fry w/ tilapia, plum, 1.5c decaf w/ almond milk, fish oil, adrenal
4p-oz almonds
7p-stir fry w/ tilapia, fish oil, adrenal, D, NC, Met, yeast, reds
815p-12 almonds, sm cuke, 2T hummus
915p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1585 cal, 74g fat (11 sat), 149g carbs (49 fiber), 99g protein – goal of 1650

August 14

GOTD: 10 minutes stretching post-workout. Did this in the parking lot at Lake Carlos State Park after a thoroughly enjoyable 5-miler.

7a-fried egg, 3 sl bacon, 2 sl toast, c reg, plum, fish oil, adrenal, NC, D, multi, Met, choc chip cookie
830a-c reg w/ cinn, almond milk, stevia
915a-.5 WonderBar, s Ultima
1015a(PWO)-.5 WonderBar, 3s Ultima
1130a-2 sm cukes w/ hummus, stir fry, fish oil, adrenal
5p-2 sl French toast w/ cinnamon, choc PB2 “syrup,” 2 chicken sausage, 2c decaf
8p-4oz tilapia w/ onions, fish oil, adrenal, D, Met, yeast, reds, NC
930-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1825 cal, 82g fat (21 sat), 180g carbs (43 fiber), 104g protein – goal of 1900

August 13

GOTD: Splurge on a treat. Don't mind if I do! I inhaled 4 slices of olive sourdough with my breakfast. NOM.

Confession: the spreadsheet actually prescribed a low-carb day. I moved that to Monday and re-randomized because (a) Saturdays need to be high-cal for a happy brain, (b) I was going to spend another Saturday lunch surrounded by carbs & I was already bringing my own soup to avoid high sandwich calories, and (c) I was going to the races where I'd be slammed with fries and pulled pork and pizza from every angle. Tough enough to stick to a reasonable plan, damn near impossible to make it low-carb without leading into dangerous binge-adjacent territories!

6a-fried egg, 4oz sourdough, c reg, adrenal, multi, fish oil
7a-c reg w/ almond milk, cinnamon
1p-broccoli salad, cabbage soup, plum, 2s SP chips, .5s pita chips, c watermelon, sl turkey
5p-5-hour energy, fish oil, adrenal
530p-SoBe LifeWater*, apple
630-3.25oz Cholula Hot Sauce beef jerky (new & nommy!)
1030p-Met, fish oil, adrenal, yeast, reds

Totals: 2021 cal, 81g fat (15 sat), 224g carbs (29 fiber), 105g protein – goal of 2000

Note: my lowest Saturday calories since 6/18. HUGE accomplishment for the week! And there are results: I'm seeing definition on my top two abs again, for the first time in ages. Happy little Hoppe.
*Woot, I found a tasty aspartame-free diet drink at Pipeline! SoBe LifeWater Fuji Apple Pear - super delicious, zero-calorie (erythritol) option. I don't believe it's some healthy beverage choice just brimming with vitamins and minerals and cancer cures, but if it avoids acne, it's a better choice of indulgence than diet pop for me.

August 12

GOTD: foam roll entire lower body -I swear it’s randomly generated but it always just KNOWS what I need!

615a-fried egg, 3oz sourdough, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, Met, multi, D
7a-c reg w cinn, almond milk
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
10a-med orange, 12 almonds
1p(PWO)-6oz chicken, c tomatoes, Larabar
415p-med apple, 12 almonds, fish oil, adrenal
645p-cabbage, tomato, meat soup, 2 rusks*, sm plum, fish oilx2, adrenal, Met, reds, yeast, NC
730p-2c cukes w/ hummus
8p-almond ice cream bar
9p-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1735 cal, 61g fat (13 sat), 193g carbs (34 fiber), 104g protein – goal of 1750

*New discovery: Reese Holland Rusk Light, Crisp Toast - satisfies a serious toast craving for only 30 cal each! And yes, they are small, but such a perfectly-done piece of toast that any dieter should enjoy them. I got them from Elden's.

August 11

GOTD: salad for breakfast. A nice change-up, and a good way to have a low-cal but filling breakfast. Gives you breathing room for treats the rest of the day!

530a-greens, carrots, cukes, cc, raspberries, balsamic, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, Met, multi, D
7a-c reg w cinn
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
10a-5oz can chicken, med banana
115p(PWO)-turkey sandwich, fruit cup, 2 mints
4p-sm apple, oz almonds
6p(PWO)-Earnest Eats almond trail mix bar (delicious & clean, but be careful: 240 cal!)
645p-cabbage, tomato, meat soup, fish oilx2, adrenal, Met, reds, yeast, NC
730p-almond ice cream bar
9p-5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1862 cal, 69g fat (16 sat), 217g carbs (34 fiber), 108g protein – goal of 1900

August 10

GOTD: 128oz water - hardly even a challenge!

6a-fried egg, sl maple bacon, honey mustard, bagel, 4 cherries, c reg, fish oil, D, multi, Met
7a-c reg w/ Truvia, cinn
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
10a-Cuban pork tenderloin
1230p-turkey sandwich, fruit cup, 2 mints (free provided lunch)
3p-SP muffin*
4p-cuke slices w/ hummus**
615p (PWO)-PB cookie***
730p-cabbage, tomato, meat soup, fish oilx2, adrenal, Met, reds, yeast
9p-NC, 5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1810 cal, 70g fat (23 sat), 192g carbs (29 fiber), 109g protein – goal of 1750

*Recipe for Sweet Potato Protein Muffins (thanks to my sweet pal Joy for sharing!)

**Very tasty, filling, refreshing, low-calorie treat. Highly recommended!

***If you plan ahead and strategize your calories just right, you CAN indulge in junk! I ate this post-speedwork, and let me tell you, nothing beats a soft, perfectly-delicious cookie after you just busted ass on the track. Perfection!

August 9

GOTD: 5 servings fruit/vegetables: cherries, apple, cabbage AND tomatoes, banana, more tomatoes = 6. Overachiever!

545a-fried egg, 2 sl maple bacon, bagel, 5 cherries, c reg, D, adrenal, .5 fish oil, Met, multi
645a-c reg w/ cinn, stevia
10a-med apple, 12 almonds
115p (PWO)-cabbage/tomato/venison/beef soup, fish oil, adrenal
4p-Cuban pork tenderloin
7p (PWO)-med banana
730p-chicken wing w/ skin, thigh & leg w/o skin, med tomato, fish oil, adrenal, Met
9p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1687 cal, 84g fat (19 sat), 137g carbs (32 fiber), 116g protein – goal of 1650

Acne note: it's still pretty awful. I am now adding aspartame to the suspect list. I cut out pop as of last week, but I've been chewing gum like a crazy person. Fingers crossed.

August 8

I just fixed the last week's worth of posts; I was off a day and didn't even realize it! Brain: dead.

Monday was a fast day, which worked pretty sweet when this was the GOTD: Skip a meal.

6a-c reg
7a-c reg, fish oil, D, adrenal, Met, reds, multi
8a-1.5c decaf
10a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
11a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
2p-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
4p-fish oil, adrenal
8p-fish oil, adrenal, Met, yeast, NC
930p-Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 185 cal, 6g fat (0 sat), 24g carbs (9 fiber), 5g protein – goal of 1550

As usual, I was cold as hell all day. But I wasn't hungry until 4pm, and water killed that urge easily. I find it totally crazy that it isn't impossibly hard.

Week two of my new 10-week plan ended up averaging: 1825 cal, 72 fat (14 sat) 35%, 202g carbs (37 fiber) 44%, 94g protein 21% - Down 5%, 95 cal avg, 665 total, from last week
Burned 3676, up 616 from last week

Weight was down 3.8, though to be fair, last week was up 3.6 due to massive carb bloat. So, first two weeks: .2-lb loss. BUT my eating was under control, and that's the most important victory.

August 7

GOTD: 10 min stretching, done after run.

630a-2 fried eggs, 2 sl maple bacon, c reg, fish oil, adrenal, multi, D, Met
715a-Larabar, Ultima
8a-Larabar, Ultima
11a-Cuban pork tenderloin*, 2s Ultima
230p-fish oil, adrenal
3p-Cuban pork tenderloin
530p-cashew pecan ball
730p-salad w/ balsamic, cc, fish oil, adrenal, Met, yeast
9p-NC, Tyrosine, 5HTP

Totals: 1620 cal, 76g fat (19 sat), 135g carbs (25 fiber), 99g protein – goal of 2600

*Cuban pork tenderloin recipe can be found here, courtesy of my brilliant foodie friend Joy. My modifications included fake mozzarella instead of swiss cheese, and (due to what I had on hand) sliced turkey instead of ham, olive tapenade instead of pickles, honey mustard instead of honey+mustard, and toothpicks instead of twine. And it was still totally fucking delicious. I highly recommend it!

August 6

GOTD: Foam roll entire lower body, done in eve.

630a-fr egg, 2 sl maple bacon on bagel, 2c reg, fish oil, adrenal, D, zinc, Met, 3s chips
730a-c reg w/ amond milk, cinn
830a-sl multigrain bread
1230p-ham & salami on 2 sl WW bread, s chips, salad w/ balsamic, 2s broccoli/bacon salad, 5 cherries, Werther’s, fish oil, adrenal
3p-T frosting, 2s chips
7p-cukes w/ hummus, salad w/ turkey & balsamic, pint blueberries, med apple, fish oil, adrenal, Met, zinc
9p-NC, 5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 2976 cal, 135g fat (21 sat), 357g carbs (66 fiber), 98g protein – goal of 1950

August 5

GOTD: Eat nothing processed. I allowed myself to eliminate this goal after 5pm due to work stress. It's an excuse, but my job is killing me these days.

5a-2 fried eggs, 3 sl maple bacon, 1.5c sweet potato, c reg, fish oil, D, zinc, adrenal, multi, Met, 5HTP, Tyrosine, NC
6a-c reg
830a-1.5c decaf, med apple
9a-12 almonds
10a-chicken & SP, c decaf, .5c reg
1p (PWO)-chicken & SP, fish oil, adrenal
4p-salad w/ balsamic
6p-3s chips*
730p-salad, cole slaw, cukes, cooked carrots, fried shrimp, beef ribs
9p-almond ice cream bar, c decaf, fish oil, adrenal, zinc, NC, 5HTP, Tyrosine, Met

Totals: 2638 cal, 109g fat (15 sat), 273g carbs (48 fiber), 123g protein – goal of 1475

*Tip: when you're feeling snacky as all get-out, put the groceries in the trunk...you can reach the backseat.

August 4

GOTD: Have an almond-milk latte - yay for my random spreadsheet function just KNOWING I needed a splurge kind of day! Hells YEAH I can achieve that!

6a-2 fried eggs, 3 sl turkey, bagel, honey mustard, c reg, Met, reds, zinc, D, fish oil, adrenal, multi
7a-c reg w/ 3oz almond milk, cinn
8a-decaf Americano w/ SF syrup
9a-2c watermelon, 1.5c decaf w/ .5oz coffee syrup
11a-oz almonds
1p (PWO)-5oz turkey on bread, adrenal, fish oil
415p-shake (protein, CPB2, cocoa)
7p-2 fried eggs, 2 sl maple bacon, sweet potato, 2c decaf w/ almond milk, cinn, fish oil, adrenal, zinc

Totals: 1930 cal, 74 fat (13 sat), 188g carbs (38 fiber), 126g protein – goal of 1750 but aimed for maintenance to prevent binge urges.

I had 2250-ish plotted out, actual maintenance, but I had awful & strange stomach cramps from 1130a-345p, so my lunch salad & afternoon blueberries were items that didn't sound appealing in the slightest. Didn't feel digestive. Ibuprofen seemed to take care of it, eventually, no idea what caused it. The best I can do is keep notes and see if it happens again.

Also? I feel pretty certain that I can pinpoint digestive issues with grains. More than 1-2 servings in a day leads to constipation. Another reason not to binge (since binges do often involve bread for me, as I am Bread's Bitch). Fuck the food pyramid or plate or whatever guide the government promotes and 98% of people ignore. I'm going with Whole9 & Loren Cordain on this one; but since I am Bread's Bitch I refuse to completely rule it out while in a deficit. 1-2 per day is a-okay.

August 3

GOTD: Splurge on a snack - no problem! See peanut butter cookie w/ peanut chunks and Reese's Pieces. NOM.

6a-2 fried eggs, 2 sl bacon, sl toast, c reg, 5HTP, Tyrosine, zinc, D, adrenal, Met, multi, fish oil
7a-c reg
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
9a-PB cookie, 2c carrots, 1.5c decaf w/ stevia
11a-c celery
1p-stir fry, banana, plum, adrenal, fish oil
330p-salad w/ balsamic
4p-protein shake
615p-banana, protein shake, adrenal, fish oil
8p-banana ice cream w/ CPB2, zinc, Met, greens, yeast, NC, 5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1737 cal, 48g fat (14 sat), 228g carbs (39 fiber), 108g protein – goal of 2030

August 2

GOTD: 5s fruits/veg - easy peasy! In fact I did 6: banana, plum, stir fry (counts as 2), red pepper, & watermelon!

6a-egg, turkey, honey mustard on bagel, c reg, zinc, D, adrenal, fish oil, multi
7a-c reg w/ cinn
8a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
10a-4oz chicken w/ pineapple, 1.5c decaf w/ stevia
1p-banana
115p-plum, stir fry w/ chicken, fortune cookie, fish oil
330p-raw red pepper
630p-cheeseburger, SP fries, Bayou Bourbon, adrenal, fish oil, zinc, Met x2, reds, yeast
730p-c watermelon
830p-NC

Totals: 1773 cal, 57g fat (13 sat), 224g carbs (36 fiber), 96g protein – goal of 1750

Supper was a big splurge because I let my husband cook for me, since it was our only meal together this week. And it's amazing how quickly those calories added up:
225 calories - 3oz lean ground beef
90 calories - oz shredded daiya, equivalent to a slice of cheese
120 calories - normal sized bun
300 calories - 2 servings (approx 24) sweet potato fries
70 calories - 2T Bayou Bourbon glaze
=805 calories...sheesh!

August 1

Simplifying.

GOTD: BW in oz water. Easily!

330a-fried egg, 2 sl bacon, c reg, fish oil, zinc, D, multi, adrenal, Met
4a-c reg, T almond butter
430a-s Ultima
530a-T almond butter, 2 sl bread, almond ice cream bar, c reg
645a-c reg w/ almond milk, cinn
7a-1.5c decaf; 9a-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
1230p-fish oil, adrenal
1p-3oz chicken w/ pineapple, med apple, 1.5c decaf w/ stevia
130p-1.5c decaf w/ stevia
4p-3oz gr beef, mini Larabar, 1.5c decaf
7p-pita w/ turkey pepperoni, tomatoes, olive tapenade, daiya "cheese," .5c snap peas, adrenal, fish oil, zinc, Met
9p-plum, NC, D, 5HTP, Tyrosine

Totals: 1625 cal, 79g fat (16 sat), 152g carbs (31 fiber), 80g protein – goal of 1700

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Dustin had an insightful comment today about my complaint that "I never get full": it's because I'm not hungry to start with. I'm eating because I feel awful physically or mentally (or both) - but I'm not eating because I'm hungry. Therefore, I'm not going to feel full - until I've eaten so much that my stomach physically hurts (which certainly does happen). Interesting point that I had not even considered!

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger: Days 44-46

Weekend time with friends: very good.

Weekend food: worse than expected. I am a bottomless pit who can't get full.

Weekend workouts: terrible. My running mojo seems to be long gone. My marathon is 4 short weeks away and I have absolutely no idea what to do about it.

Friday
 6a-fried egg sandwich w/ 1.5 sl bacon, 2c reg, multi, D, zinc, adrenal, fish oil
7a-c reg w/ cinn, almond milk
8a-American w/ SF syrup
9a-Pranabar, can d ch Pepsi
930a-caramel toffee scone
11a-salad w/ balsamic
12p-Tio’s taco salad w/ pork, fish oil, adrenal
1p-mini orange muffin
230p-banana
3p-4oz chicken, 3 pineapple chunks, can d ch Pepsi
5p-chips, can d ch Pepsi
Heather’s-hot dog, chips, fruit salad, green beans, s’mores, shit ton of pop

Totals: 2718 cal, 113g fat (22 sat), 354g carbs (45 fiber), 100g protein – goal of 1250

Saturday

breakfast-lots of coffee, lots of bread, eggs, bacon, sausage, more bread
lunch: pulled pork sandwich, cole slaw, fries, tortilla chips, diet Pepsi
supper: many chips, pizza pie, PB & marshmallow pie
all day-shit ton of pop

Totals (est): 3302 cal, 175g fat (34 sat), 280g carbs (29 fiber), 100g protein – goal of 1850

Sunday
breakfast-omelet, coffee, bread
drive home-pop, chips
at home-pop, ice cream, bread
after nap-chicken & veg stir fry
supper time-pint blueberries

Totals (est): 1859 cal, 60g fat (21 sat), 255g carbs (27 fiber), 60g protein – goal of 750