Sheesh, time flies

I haven't truly updated this thing since before Fargo Marathon, and I apologize. I had an agonizing DNF at Fargo and my brain tanked pretty hard for the next week or so. I really felt beat up by life, and struggled to overcome my massive disappointment. And then work went insane and this fell by the wayside.

Anyway, enough excuses. For the sake of saving time, I'm going to just paste in my daily Dustin journaling since then (he gets a weekly dose of brain vomit each Tuesday), and I will work on regular updates from here on out. Enjoy!


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Friday 5/20 – 8.5 hours in bed. Woke at 3 & often after 5, but I feel good. 7 pull-ups. Still super anxious, but trying to simply be grateful to even be planning to run tomorrow. Afternoon trip to Dunham’s (~20 min), drive to Fargo, picked up Kenny, Scheel’s & expo (~60 min), then back to Kenny’s for supper. Ate a ton but it was all veg & meat. In bed by 10.
Food: 6a-2 fried eggs, 2oz venison sausage, c honeydew/cantaloupe, c reg, zinc, FiberSmart, vit D, few grapes; 7a-c reg; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-apple, 12 almonds; 11a-c blueberries; 12p-chicken & veg, 2T balsamic; 3p-bag snap peas; 6p-6oz steak, c sweet potato, c asparagus, c zuchhini, .5c onion, c mushrooms, oz brain food, FiberSmart, aloe
Totals: 1819 cal, 67g fat (21 sat), 169g carbs (38 fiber), 142g protein

Saturday 5/21 – 7 hours in bed, air mattress; slept fairly well. Up at 5. Link to race report. Stood w/ Lisa & Amy for ~20 minutes, waiting to catch Darrin or Brett, saw them both, took a GU, found a bottle of water, went to dome. Was really quite miserable waiting for Heather, had another bout of crying and just wanted to change, get my shit and go home to wallow. Luckily my friends are really amazing and let me be for a while, until we were all gathered and headed for pizza. Took forever to get out of dome, finally got to eat at like 1. STARVING, ate half the pizza, which was downright fantastic. Dropped Amy/Lisa back off, got coffee, banana, almonds, headed home. Pretty much just laid around on couch reading/TV (no nap), feeling sorry for myself, ate far too much (finished off all but one last slice of pizza), and was falling asleep on the couch at 9.
Food: 5a-egg, gr turkey, FiberSmart, vit D; 630a-oz brain food; during race-3 Gus, after-1GU; 1p-8 slices pizza; 2p-oz roasted almonds; 330p-banana; 5p-c cauliflower, c broccoli, 4T guacamole; 530p-7 slices pizza, apple, Sunbutter; 8p-2s fish oil
Totals: 4562 cal, 241g fat (70 sat), 362g carbs (52 fiber), 143g protein

Sunday 5/22 – 12 hours in bed! Quads sore, calves VERY tight, joints sore all day (worst going down stairs). Spent most of the day on couch, reading/TV; made food late afternoon, ~hour on feet. Mentally bounced regularly from one end of the spectrum to the other, rather exhausting. Ate too much. Made a list of reasons to lose weight, a list of healthy snacks & meals, and a weekly workout plan. 4 pull-ups.
Food: 9a-fried egg, 3oz ham steak, 2c reg, vit D, FiberSmart, fish oil, c honeydew; 10a-2 papaya spears, 2c decaf; 12p-slice pizza; 130p-chicken & veg, apple; 330p-c dried blueberries; 530p-3oz ham steak, 2T bbq sauce; 7p-c roasted broccoli (w/ garlic olive oil)
Totals: 2106 cal, 64g fat (17 sat), 338g carbs (42 fiber), 105g protein

Monday 5/23 – 7 hours in bed. Slept solidly, felt great. Up at 430 to meet Amy. 5 pull-ups. Spartacus, 2 rounds; thought it would be brutal, so I kept the weights light - but it felt pretty good! Goblet squat, 45-lb KB - Mountain climber - Swing, 24-kg KB - T-push-up, 10-lb DBs - Split jump - Row, 20-lb DBs - Side lunge & touch, 25-lb DBs - Renegade row, 10-lb DBs - Lunge & rotate, 25-lb DB - Push press, 15-lb DBs. Stretched like mad, then foam rolled. Quads are sore & calves are extremely tight, but otherwise I am pretty well recovered from Saturday already. Joints feel good. Wanted to fast to make up for insane calories, but also want to recover quickly. Noon run w/ Amy: .8 m to trail, 1.7 m barefoot, .8 back. Ran at her pace, 9:05 avg. Felt great, but feet got nasty gross from sticky sappiness. Mentally doing better; trying to be grateful that I was able to attempt it at all, plus it was pain-free, plus it was 15.5 miles, plus it was at an amazing 7:55 pace, AND this weekend I’m planning another long [trail] run. The word of the day in my little spreadsheet is “LOVE” and I’m using that as a focus point on the fact that somehow, I am able to do what I love to do. Eve rather lazy, mostly read; pulled weeds for ~20 min. Snacky.
Food: 430a-fried egg, 2oz venison sausage, c reg, vit D; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-chicken & veg; 1p-chicken & veg; 545p-chicken & veg, 2c grapes, salad (cabbage, carrots, peppers, peas, balsamic), 2 FiberSmart, 2s fish oil; 7p-6 almonds, dried pear slice, c decaf
Totals: 1692 cal, 80g fat (21 sat), 121g carbs (27 fiber), 137g protein

Averages: 2296 cal (target was 1900), 106g fat (30 sat) 42%, 202g carbs (36 fiber) 35%, 134g protein 23% -- Up 17%, 326 cal avg & 2284 total, from prior week -- 2011 avg so far: 1997 cal, 89g fat (20 sat), 168g carbs (31 fiber), 138g protein -- Burned 3867, up 431 from last week

Tuesday 5/24 – 8 hours in bed, slept very solidly. Legs a bit sore but otherwise good. Feel a little dehydrated. Session was good, nice & easy! Afternoon gardening (easy, ~90 min), worked from home, insurance meeting, laziness at home. Just wasn’t feeling up to the planned run or ride due to the wind. Did 4 pull-ups ~430p, then 5 at bedtime.
Food: 6a-2 fried eggs, 4oz venison sausage, vit D, 2 FiberSmart, c reg; 715a-c decaf; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-2oz ham steak; 11a-sm banana; 115p-4oz ham steak, 3 dried pear slices; 330p-med banana; 7p-pork/beef patty, salad (cabbage, carrots, peppers, peas, balsamic), 2 FiberSmart, fish oilx2, 6 almonds, papaya strip; 830p-magnesium
Totals: 1744 cal, 85g fat (29 sat), 119g carbs (21 fiber), 126g protein

Wednesday 5/25 – 7.5 hours in bed, slept SOLIDLY. 6 pull-ups. 630am Spartacus! Monday morning went so well, I decided to add the weight increase on round 2 today. And felt it. Oof. Goblet squat 35, 45 - Mountain Climber - Swing 45, 52.8 - T-push-up 10, 15 - Split jump - Row 25, 30 - Side lunge & touch 25, 30 - Renegade row 10, 15 - DB lunge & rotate 25, 30 - Push press 15, 20 - A great way to start the day off with a big ol' sense of accomplishment. And next time I’m feeling fat, I’m doing goblet squats in front of a mirror. Makes me look awesome! Eve NSS intervals: fun! 200m: 41s, 37s, 38s – 400m: 83s (split 40, 43) - 200m: 38s, 38s, 38s - Top speed: 4:27 pace /13.4 mph! Felt really good. TV laziness at home. Cold shower 30s front, 30s back, repeat, then hot. Just kept telling myself, “You’re not going to die. It’s only 30 seconds. It’s not that cold. You’re not going to die!”
Food: 5a-2 fried eggs, 4oz venison sausage, vit D, 2 FiberSmart, c reg; 6a-c reg; 715a-1.5c reg; 9a-Pollock; 10a-med banana; 1145a-iceberg, cuke slices, grape tomatoes, balsamic, 5oz chicken breast, 2c cooked baby carrots, 4c reg; 330p-chicken & veg, 6 almonds; 7p- salad (cabbage, carrots, peppers, peas, balsamic), 2 FiberSmart, fish oilx2; 730p-.5 small apple, Sunbutter, magnesium
Totals: 1655 cal, 66g fat (15 sat), 139g carbs (33 fiber), 131g protein

Thursday 5/26 – 8 hours in bed. Up at 2 for bathroom, awake off/on after 5am. Otherwise I feel really good. Session was good walking out. About 4pm started feeling it. Not dead tired or anything, just not planning another am Spartacus and not really up for an hour with Amy! We did only 30 minutes: plank work, ab work, plank work, curls, deadlifts, lunges, hip circles, calf killers, plank work. Short, sweet, & brutal, felt good to crank it out. Target, ~20 min, then laziness at home. Ate too much. Went to bed early. 5 pull-ups.
Food: 6a-2 fried eggs, c sweet potato, c reg, 2 FiberSmart, vit D, fish oil; 7a-c reg; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-s Pollock, 1.5c decaf; 930a-sm apple; 11a-oz almonds, 1.5c decaf; 115p-chicken & broccoli; 3p-sm apple; 4p-.5oz almonds; 720p-chicken & broccoli, salad, beef/pork patty, 6 almonds, 2 FiberSmart, fish oil, magnesium
Totals: 2160 cal, 116g fat (24 sat), 137g carbs (37 fiber), 149g protein

Friday 5/27 – 8.5 hours in bed. Slept very well, though up at midnight again. Feeling good. Pull-ups 7 (max) +3 ~half hour later. Going to try doing 10 every morning & night over two sets. NOT SORE from Wed at all! Maybe the contrast shower thing works after all! Noon Spartacus w/ Joy. It was fun; the 60s work time goes by MUCH more quickly if you've got a pal joining you. Unfortunately, the 15s breaks also fly like the speed of light! Goblet squat 35, 45 - Mountain Climber - Swing 45, 52.8 - T-push-up 10, 10 - Split jump - Row 25, 25 - Side lunge & touch 25, 25 - Renegade row 10, 10 - DB lunge & rotate 25, 25 - Push press 20, 20 – felt good! Eve laziness: reading 127 Hours. Pull-ups 6+4.
Food: 6a-fried egg, chicken sausage, c reg, fish oil, vit D, 2 FiberSmart; 630a-c reg; 7a-c decaf; 745a-1.5c reg; 9a-s Pollock, 1.5c decaf; 1045a-sm apple; 1130a-6 almonds; 1p-chicken & veg; 3p-c cooked cabbage, 18 almonds; 6p-2 fried eggs, chick saus, c sweet potato, c decaf, fish oil; 7p-bag snap peas, 2oz roast beef, magnesium
Totals: 1604 cal, 69g fat (20 sat), 115g carbs (28 fiber), 135g protein

Saturday 5/28 – 8 hours in bed; up at 4 for BR but slept very well. Pull-ups 7+3. Met Greg at SJU for 10 miles on gorgeous trails. It was PERFECTION. Hilly, some muddy patches, some grassy sections, mostly in beautiful, peaceful, bright green woods. I tanked at the very end, half mile from our cars, heading up a hill. Had no desire to grind it out (& finish totally dead). Splits a bit wonky due to map consultations & the occasional dead end: 8:58, 8:41, 8:37, 8:50, 9:58, 9:51, 9:03, 9:42, 8:57, 9:23, 10:19 (for .61, walking @ 16:57). Avg (incl walking) of 9:38. Hit grocery store on way home, where fresh kettle corn was being cooked in the parking lot. ARGH. Resisted that in favor of a bag of Angie’s Lite (600 cal), justified as a pre-race tradition J!! Made venison roast & beef roast, otherwise laziness in afternoon (reading, eating kettle corn) then reading & shivering at the races, where my supper was cold but delicious roast beef. Pull-ups 7+3.
Food: 630a-2 fried eggs, s chick saus, 2c reg, fish oil, FiberSmart, vit D; 8a (pre-run)-.5oz almonds, 1.5 c reg; 10a (post-run)-.5oz almonds, papaya; 1p-c asparagus, s Pollock w/ fish sauce, FRS drink; 245p-bag of lite kettle corn, 2 carrots, 2T guacamole; 4p-oz roast beef, fried egg, chick saus, 2c decaf; 630p 3oz roast beef, 1.5c reg; 11p-FiberSmart, fish oil
Totals: 2117 cal, 89g fat (21 sat), 214g carbs (39 fiber), 143g protein

Sunday 5/29 – 7.5 hours in bed. Shut down pull-ups for the day, sore elbows. Otherwise I felt very good! Delivered tiller, hit winery, got situated after the cash runaround, no downtime to get anxious about the actual race. Race report. Splits: 7:33, 7:29, 7:29, 7:30, 7:45, 7:22, 0:14 – bit short, Garmin showed 6.02 miles, average of 7:32. Imagine how fast I could’ve been if I hadn’t run on Saturday! Lisa & I went to park about 2 hours later, and it was just BEAUTIFUL. We saw a deer, plenty of pretty spring green-ness, and a group of riders on pretty horses who called us "way too ambitious" - oh, if they only knew! With her long run Monday, we were both planning to keep it easy, but even that turned out to be a bit much for me. I needed to cut it short & walk, but it was extremely enjoyable anyway. Nothing better than the woods in May! Splits: 9:27, 9:38, 6:09 (for .70, 8:49 pace), 5:34 (walked .30), 2:43 (for .31, 8:38), 10:46 (walked .64). Picked up tiller, laziness at home, races (ate cold venison roast this time).
Food: 630a-2 fried eggs, chick saus, 2c reg, oz venison roast, fish oil, FiberSmart, vit D; 8a-c decaf; 930a (pre race)-.5c reg, oz almonds, dried papaya strip, dried pear slice; 11a (post race)-orange, c reg, bag apple chips; 12p (pre park)-oz almonds, 2 papaya strips, 2 pear slices; 2p (post park)-1.5c reg; 345p-3oz beef roast; 630p-6oz venison roast, apple; 730p-s sunflower seeds; 11p-FiberSmart, fish oil
Totals: 1965 cal, 92g fat (14 sat), 148g carbs (31 fiber), 124g protein

Monday 5/30 – 7 hours in bed. New PR on pull-ups: 8+2!! Feeling awesome. Amy backed out of Lake B due to weather. Mindlessly overate at breakfast while reading but then kept busy on computer until parents’ for lunch at 1. Getting smarter: specifically told mom NOT to make me sweet potatoes, she was planning to get me some. Knew that I wouldn’t be able to resist them if they were in front of me! 3 hours pulling weeds & pruning vines, not strenuous. Supper at home, cooked fish up in three different ways, best combo was w/ olive oil & fried onions over high heat, treating it like stir fry & shaking it frequently until done. Delicious! Did a stupid thing, though: I was FULL after supper but deduced I had calories for a pint of sorbet. Why not STOP where I was?! Dumb.
Food: 730a-egg white omelet w/ snap peas, mojo sauce, 2c reg, vit D, FiberSmart, s Brazil nuts, 6 oz venison roast; 10a-c reg; 12p-c reg; 130p-fish w/ olive oil, roasted veg w/ olive oil, pineapple, cantaloupe, 1.5c reg; 530p-c pineapple/cantaloupe, 1.5c reg; 7p-fish w/ olive oil, onions (bit w/ egg white & almond flour), 3 med carrots, 3T guacamole, pint sorbet
Totals: 1882 cal, 69g fat (7 sat), 174g carbs (25 fiber), 123g protein

Averages: 1875 cal (target was 1850), 84g fat (19 sat) 40%, 149g carbs (31 fiber) 32%, 133g protein 28% -- Down 18%, 475 cal avg & 2947 total, from prior week -- 2011 avg so far: 1996 cal, 89g fat (20 sat), 168g carbs (31 fiber), 138g protein -- Burned 3219, down 648 from last week

Tuesday 5/31 – 8 hours in bed. HOT. Did not sleep well, but I feel pretty good. Morning scattered brain and low blood sugar grossness at 1130a, had to eat some almonds. Session was solid, walked out feeling good! Eve laziness, wasn’t really up for anything workout-wise. Made salads & fish, ~hour on feet. Still felt snacky after eating 2 pork chops, ate cherries. Pull-ups 6+4.
Food: 6a-fried egg, chick saus, c reg, fish oil, 1 FiberSmart, vit D; 715a-c decaf; 8a-1.5c reg; 10a-med apple, Sunbutter, 1.5c decaf; 1130a-oz almonds; 115p-3oz roast beef, .5c mushrooms; 2p-1.5c decaf; 230p-sm banana; 330p-oz almonds; 545p-sm carrot; 6p-salad (cabbage, carrots, peppers, celery, zucchini, balsamic); 630p-2 pork chops, c cherries, FiberSmart, fish oil; 9p-2 oz Tilapia (while cooking)

Totals: 1769 cal, 98g fat (17 sat), 111g carbs (27 fiber), 125g protein



Wednesday 6/1 – 8 hours in bed. Had alarm set for 5am to come in for Spartacus but I didn’t sleep all that great and was damn tired; reset it for my normal 6am. GOLD STAR for listening to my body! Meanwhile in that last hour, Oscar thundering about the house caused me poor sleep AND horse dreams! Pull-ups 8+2. Feeling a bit tired & blah, but not too bad. COLD. Lunch utility run to post office felt sluggish. Splits: there at 8:28, 8:26 (pace for .67) - back at 8:06, 8:15 (pace for .58). 3.25m, 8:18 overall. Mid-afternoon coffee; hopefully it will fuel the track work! Track workout felt good. 200 meters: 38s, 38s, 38s (last week: 41, 37, 38) - 400 meters: 85s, split 41+44 (last week: 83 / 40+43) - 200 meters: 39s, 40s, 37s (last week: 38, 38, 38). Given the way I felt most of the day, that’s awesome! Anniversary supper was huge and delicious. Snacky afterward, ate 2 small carrots w/ my magnesium. Gold star!
Food: 6a-egg white omelet w/ chick saus, c reg, fish oil, vit D, FiberSmart; 715a-c reg; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-apple, 6 almonds; 11a-18 almonds; 1230p-salad, tilapia w/ onions, olive oil; 215p-12 almonds; 315p-12 almonds, c reg; 430p-sm banana; 7p-7oz NY strip steak, 1.25c sweet potato, c asparagus, .25c mushrooms, .5c onions, 2 sm carrots, fish oil, magnesium, FiberSmart
Totals: 1872 cal, 74g fat (16 sat), 171g carbs (38 fiber), 147g protein

Thursday 6/2 – 8 hours in bed, woke at 3am gross/hot/sweaty, bathroom, fell asleep quickly though. Carbs high, but not unreasonable - I’m thinking it’s due to *80g* at supper alone. Going to try another high-carb day but put most of them earlier in the day. Tired but not too bad, brain is in a good place. Session felt great, restorative! Eve Amy canceled class & I was cool with that. Beetles game w/ my godchild, fun but late. Left Alex at 10:25. UGH. Forgot about eve pull-ups.
Food: 6a-2 fried eggs, 3.5oz steak, c reg, FiberSmart, vit D; 7a-c reg; 8a-1.5c reg w/ oz syrup; 9a-sm apple, .5s Sunbutter; 930a-1.5c reg w oz syrup; 11a-med apple, .5s Sunbutter, .5oz decaf; 1p-banana; 115p-.5s Tilapia, salad, .5c sweet potato; 345p-s Tilapia; 530p-6oz roast beef, 6 almonds
Totals: 1885 cal, 77g fat (11 sat), 173g carbs (28 fiber), 129g protein
Carb timing: 6a=21, 9a=23, 11a=40, 1p=88, 530p=1, 9p=1 - Result: yep, late carbs on Wed was the culprit since I had almost the exact same Wed/Thurs--but timing was totally different. Will experiment to figure out the most I can handle at supper.

Friday 6/3 – 6.5 hours in bed. Slept solidly but TIRED. Pull-ups 7+3. Elbows felt sore on way to work. (I should do some kind of mobility/warm-up before, I think.) Canceled noon run, no eve plans: total rest day. Groceries, ~20 min on feet. Ate my planned supper, then an apple & Sunbutter, then sat down with bag of nuts & cranberry mix and ate it all. Then I also ate half the almond butter. Brain was in a good spot but SO TIRED that I was an idiot. Solution: no more nut butter. Again. Next time I feel confident, I’ll buy the plain unsalted unflavored gross stuff.
Food: 6a-2 fried eggs, chick saus, .5c sweet potato, c reg, 6 almonds; 630a-c reg; 7a-c decaf, fish oil, FiberSmart; 8a-1.5c reg; 930a-1.5c reg, sm apple, .5s Sunbutter; 1030a-.5s Sunbutter; 11a-sm banana; 1p-salad, 3.5oz steak, 6 almonds; 330p-2oz Tilapia, c asparagus w/ mushrooms, onions, olive oil; 6p-salad, 4.75 Tilapia, 6 almonds, sm apple & Sunbutter, 3oz mega omega mix, carrot, 7s almond butter; 8p-4 FiberSmart, fish oil
Totals: 3944 cal, 250g fat (24 sat), 281g carbs (74 fiber), 191g protein

Saturday 6/4 – 8 hours in bed but didn’t sleep well. Up at 2am, sweaty & gross. Pull-ups 6+4. Drove to Cities, maybe half hour standing/walking around, 5.25 miles ran, which was flat-out awesome. Pace probably around 9, slow & easy (especially after tucking in with Jurek); being The Naked Tour, I went Garmin-less, can you believe it?! I knew I could count on Mike for the distance, though. Felt great! ~1.5 hours at talk/Q&A, stood ~20 min. Drove home, napped SOLIDLY two hours, ate more almond butter, then sat at the races all night. Left early to get to bed. Pull-ups 6+4.
Food: 630a-fried egg, chick saus, c reg, fish oil, FiberSmart, vit D; 715a-c reg; 8a-1.5c reg; 9a-.5oz almonds, .5oz dr cranberries, .5oz dr apricots, cinnamon; 11a-popsicle, .5oz almonds, .5oz dr cranberries, .5oz dr apricots, cinnamon; 1p-banana, chick saus; 5p-2 fried eggs, chick saus, c decaf, 2 carrots, med apple, 3.5s almond butter; 730p-oz almonds
Totals: 2411 cal, 140g fat (19 sat), 216g carbs (38 fiber), 100g protein

Sunday 6/5 – 8 hours in bed. Slept very good, finally! Pull-ups 7+3. Met Mike at 10, for 15. Started out great but too fast, and the heat soon started kicking my ass. And wasn’t even that hot: 70F – clearly time to acclimate to summer! No particular fatigue point, just overheating and fully lacking enthusiasm after mile 11. Did run/walk shuffle 13 onward while Mike ran on. Splits: 8:02, 8:03, 8:07, 8:11, 8:13, 8:10, 8:12, 8:16, 8:12, .37m@ 8:27, 3:22 pit stop for water/food, 8:24, .57@ 8:13, 8:27, .47@ 8:11, walked for .13 up a steep hill, .41m@ 8:05, then I just gave up. Walked for .5, .26m@ 8:15, walked for .24, .5m@ 8:18, walked for .18, .09m@9:07. 14.77 miles, 8:59 avg. Nutrition: dried apricots & honey felt basically the same as a GU, gross in my belly. I need to start carrying water WITH me in heat. But: still NO PAIN, so overall, it was a success! Mike had a beautiful post-run idea: Latoka Beach. He went all in, but I just went thigh-deep. Felt great! Knees a little creaky in afternoon/eve but not bad at all. A’noon, met Heather/Kenny for motorcycle ride & go-karts. Fun! Back home, ~30 min on feet making food, doing chores. A little bit tired & depleted but brain is doing well. To bed at 9pm. Pull-ups 7+3.
Food: 630a-fried egg, chick saus, c decaf, apple, 3.5s almond butter, FiberSmart, vit D; 7a-c reg; 8a-c reg; 9a (pre run)-.5oz almonds, oz dr cranberries; 11a (mid run)-.5T honey, oz dr apricots; 1230p (post run)-.5oz almonds; .5T honey; 130p-sm apple, 2 carrots; 530p-salad, chick saus, c asparagus; 6p-oz roast beef, oz portabellas; 730p-FiberSmart, fish oil, sm apple
Totals: 1999 cal, 109g fat (11 sat), 203g carbs (45 fiber), 82g protein

Monday 6/6 – 8 hours in bed – slept like a rock, felt good when I got up at 5am. Left shin/ankle area is oddly achey. Pull-ups 8+2. Knees angry during warm-up but Spartacus w/ Joy felt good (& tough)! Two rounds, medium weights. Fasting. COLD like usual at noon. Didn’t really want to go for a bike ride, but figured it was a good chance to burn some calories, run an errand, and warm up! 5.56 miles, 30 min, felt great despite 85F. Hungry about 2pm, also really cold again. Avoided drinking tons of coffee, though. Made it to 445p, when I started feeling kind of awful. Ate some almonds; made it 21.25 hours, anyway! Yoga was really hard, thus awesome! Ate a normal supper.
Food: 5a-FiberSmart, vit D, fish oil, c reg; 6a-c reg; 730a-1.5c reg; 9a-1.5c reg; 445p-oz almonds; 7p-chick saus, salad, cold roasted veg (peas, broccoli, squash, dand greens), 8 almonds, FiberSmart, fish oil; 830p-magnesium
Totals: 98 cal, 9g fat (2 sat), 1g carbs (1 fiber), 2g protein

Averages: 2072 cal, 112g fat (15 sat) 49%, 172g carbs (38 fiber) 33%, 115g protein 22% -- Up 10%, 196 cal avg & 1375 total, from prior week -- 2011 avg so far: 1996 cal, 90g fat (20 sat), 168g carbs (32 fiber), 136g protein -- Burned 3093, down 126 from last week

New strategy: work in one treat daily. Apple chips, apple w/ Sunbutter, QC coffee, sweet potato, pancakes, oz of coffee syrup, etc. These are barely treats as far as nutrition goes, but mentally they are big big treats to me, which should suffice.

Tuesday 6/7 – 7.5 hours in bed. Up at 5 again, this time to work (close). Up at 3am for bathroom, otherwise slept well. (40g carbs at last night’s supper.) Feeling good! Session kicked ass. 9 pull-ups!!! And cleans finally feel like they are working right. ROCK ON!! Eve looked at house, ~1.5 hours on feet, otherwise laziness. Pull-ups 7+3.
Food: 5a-2 fried eggs, chick saus, c reg, c asparagus; 6a-c reg; 7a-1.5c reg; 830a-baby banana, .5s Sunbutter; 11a-med apple, .5s Sunbutter; 115p-4oz roast w/ shrooms & onions, bag apple chips; 4p-13 almonds; 715p-salad, Pollock & onions, 7 almonds, FiberSmart, fish oil
Totals: 1583 cal, 72g fat (11 sat), 135g carbs (28 fiber), 111g protein

Wednesday 6/8 – 7.25 hours in bed, slept like ass. Hard time falling asleep, woke often. Up at 3 for bathroom just to see if that would help. Didn’t. Blaming the cats, weather change? Pull-ups 7+3. 1.5” heels. AM Spartacus w/ Joy, heavy day, super hard. Couldn’t do push-press w/ 35s. Nice way to start the day! Glutes quite sore when I got up, felt better after Spartacus. Core a bit sore. No lunchtime workout ambition, though, just left me all at once. Not tired, really, just MEH on the whole idea. No running when I feel this way, and too damn windy to bike. Feeling extremely snacky at work. Company celebration is all shit I can’t eat and it’s affecting my brain...added a Sunbutter because I was craving the hell out of it, nothing else seemed to satisfy, and it didn’t wreck my calories one bit. But still just in the mood to eat eat eat. Speedwork went well, was fun despite NO DATA. At home, had a very healthy supper, but then made muffins & cookies for team. Taste-tested one of each (despite dairy in both). Muffins were tolerable but not actually good, so I had to toss them but I took a couple of them and chewed then spit back out. I was just not in a good place mentally. Clearly due to low sleep once again, I need to have strategies for this! Noshed on some frozen cherries once I got the muffins thrown away.
Food: 5a-2s Pollock, roasted veg, sm apple, c reg; 6a-c reg; 745a-med apple, Sunbutter, 1.5c QC coffee; 10a-s Pollock & .125c onions; 11a-6 almonds; 1230p-salad; 1p-chick saus, 1.5c reg w/ .5oz syrup; 245p-6 almonds, 1.5c reg w/ .5oz syrup, Sunbutter 430p(pre-run)-chick saus; 630p(post-run)-sm apple; 7p-6oz chicken, c asparagus, FiberSmart, vit D, magnesium; 8p-muffin, cookie, .5c frozen cherries
Totals: 2014 cal, 76g fat (14 sat), 184g carbs (41 fiber), 142g protein

Thursday 6/9 – A very bad night. In bed by 915p, but wide awake at 1a: hot, sweaty, gross. Due to the carbs and I KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. Could NOT fall back asleep, and was hungry. Got up at 2; ate eggs, bacon, decaf, and then apple & Sunbutter, and THEN a fucking pint of coconut fucking ice cream. HATE my STUPID brain! Went back to bed at 3, and it took a while but I slept solidly until 6. Session was fantastic. Deadlift PR = happy brain! Being extra nice to myself this afternoon, no longer berating myself for this morning; trying to act like my own best friend. Registered for Afton. HOLD ME. Amy’s class is all a bit of a blur: slow-mo inchworms w/ planks & leg raises, flyes, OH punches, hydrant kicks, ab work, push-ups, jacks/sprints/jump squats, wall sits w/ raises, around the world lunges w/ versa-bar, kayaks, stairs. Felt way easier for me than it looked for them! At home, pretty hungry but kept things reasonable.
Food: 2a-2 eggs, 2 sl bacon, 2c decaf, sm apple, Sunbutter, pint coconut ice cream; 6a-c reg, s Pollock; 7a-c reg, .5c sweet potato; 8a-1.5c reg; 11a-1.5c reg w/ .5oz syrup, med apple; 115p-s Pollock, c sweet potato; 330p-Sunbutter; 4p-6 almonds; 7p-s Pollock, salad, roasted veg, few frozen cherries, FiberSmart, magnesium
Totals: 2382 cal, 105g fat (40 sat), 267g carbs (69 fiber), 111g protein

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