Monday, September 15

Nutrition: REALLY hungry today, couldn't eat enough. Also low on work snacks; somehow I had zero Larabars or Kind bars or anything and didn't know it. However! Turned out I had 4 cases of Larabars that had arrived to my door on Saturday and I just finally discovered them today. Now I'm all stocked up on all the very best flavors.
  • 515a-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, roasted veg, 3 toast, coffee w CM
  • 845-coconut butter
  • 1045-roasted salted almonds (kept to ~1/2 oz), large green apple
  • (1215p-30min run)
  • 115-chicken, yam, few more almonds
  • 6-salad w avocado & pepper vinaigrette dressing, 2 toast, apple w SB
  • calories 2350: p 550, c 875, f 925

: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 66% quality. Tossed & turned more than usual. Wide awake at 4a, happy to have more time to sleep, but I fell back hard and the alarm buzzed me at 5a sharp. Gah-ross.

Healthy Movement: Left core tight. Stretched it after class, stayed tight all day. Lunch run was a nice hard push, enjoyed doing that for a change. HOORAY, FALL! Did my PT after the run like a good girl. Still a tight core, but man, remembering how good that side stretch felt prompted me to do it again in the eve. I'm on a roll!

Fun & Play: Good moods at work, especially given it's a Monday. A quick chat with my Timmy. Sent a surprise gift to Greg to repay him for breakfast at the Superior 100, both because he didn't need to pay to feed me, and also because it was my monthly RAK day! A training class with my Buddy, no chance for talking, but lovely to see her. Surprisingly solid run. Saw Brian after that run and had an excuse to stand outside for 5 extra minutes in the glorious, lovely fall day. Rough to go back inside, want an outside job right now, pretty please! Hubs home all eve, plenty of chatting and even some chores done, including dragging a pile of giant branches out from the weeds, just for me & my Saturday-night bonfire. Score!

Sunday, September 14

Nutrition: Got my act together in terms of food prep: whole slow-cooker chicken with a jar of salsa dumped on it; 4 packages of frozen veg cooked up, sprinkled with a TS spice, for a breakfast side; 2 packages of breakfast chicken sausage cooked (need to lay off the bacon for a while); bunch of yams cooked. Go me!
  • 645-2 eggs, bacon, roasted veg (cabbage, bok choi, rutabaga, cauliflower), 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • (1015-hulking session)
  • 1145-summer sausage w rice crackers, apple w SB
  • 215-coconut bar
  • 545-2 hot dogs w mustard, 3 toast w SB & CB & jelly, half kombucha
  • (645-4.6m run)
  • Calories 2275: P 600, C 575, F 1100

Sleep: 9 (!) hours in bed, 930p-630a, 86% quality. Coughed myself awake at 130a (I am apparently allergic to my work desk, and my bed), hit bathroom and drank water to soothe the throat. In/out 5a onward, trying to fall back but no luck. Got up rested but a little groggy. Felt a little sleepy while hammocking but otherwise I had zero need for a nap, no energy crash. Cool!

Healthy Movement: I got up feeling really damn good. Little core tightness but the legs & the hips, they felt just fine, how is that possible?! I expected at least SOME creakiness to start my day. Not even any left-knee pain on stairs, and. THAT is a total shock. Put on compression socks anyway, figured every little bit helps if I'm running tonight, too. Had me a fun hulking session, improved my bench a bit over two weeks ago; all things felt good. Not stellar, not bad, just good. If not for the evening run plan, would've dragged the tire outside for some flips in the lovely warm sunshine. Instead I got to enjoy an easy run at LCSP; worth the trade-off both for the company, the nature, and the fantastic T&S training. The left core felt somewhat tight while running, but not bad. Need to get back onto my proper PT schedule and I'm sure it will go away again. Also I made sure to stuff myself before the run to see if it would sit well. I was fine, but I did have about an hour to digest, so I still don't know if I could put much down DURING a run.

Fun & Play: Productive day, lots of chores & food prep & cleaning done. Not fun to DO, but fun to HAVE DONE. Good hulking session. Sunshine & open windows. Hammock time. Not feeling beat-up from yesterday. Very enjoyable easy run. Chatting with Brian. Hubs back home.

Nature: Open windows again, yay! Hammock time! It took bundling up into a hat, mittens, and a sleeping bag, but it was worth it. Especially when a fawn wandered right into my yard. Eeee! And the run at LCSP was so perfect. Perfect temps, quiet time of day, peaceful woods. Fall is the best, yo.

Saturday, September 13

Nutrition: Starving on my run today; need more solid food in my belly. Tough to figure out what will be more substantial but still sit well.
  • 5-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • (715-15m run)
  • During-4 chews, salt tab, "yellow one" squeeze pack
  • 1045-whey shake
  • 1130-2 eggs, ham, breakfast potatoes, coffee
  • 130p-apple w SB
  • (230-430-nap)
  • 430-SB&J toast, 2 cod liver oil
  • 630-salad w avocado, 2 toast
  • 8-pint AZ w mango & coconut butter
  • Calories 2875: P 750, C 1075, F 1050

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 9p-445a, 88% quality. Dozing 430a onward, but Hanky wouldn't let me go any later. Felt solid, would've liked more. Napped after the run, 2 lovely hours. Got up feeling rather refreshed.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling quite good. Run had high points and low points, as most do. Never felt awesome, but only felt like serious work in the last five miles. A success! Left core was tight off and on after about 2/3, and stiffened up afterward, but wasn't bad the rest of the day. There, but not flinchingly so.

Fun & Play: Fanstastic running weather, and a successful outing with many friends. Second breakfast. Nap. Silly chats with my peeps. Good racing news from the hubs. Snuggly pets.

Friday, September 12

Nutrition: Ate up the calories today, but felt exhausted all day long, like I couldn't possible get enough energy from the calories I took in. Weird.
  • 6a-1 egg, bacon, mustard, 2 toast, SB&J toast, coffee w CM
  • 945-bag pork jerky
  • 1215p-can tuna w mustard, rice crackers, whey shake
  • 330-chocolate super cookies
  • 6-Daiya pizza, root beer kombucha (so super noms)
  • calories 2950: p 700, c 1550, f 700

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 930p-6a, 97% quality. More like 80%. I was awake & dozing in/out 5a onward. Again reliving all the highlights of last weekend. Just so much loveliness that turned my brain around, when I didn't even realize it needed it. But sleep would've been better. In late due to keeping up with online pals and also this time it was Oscar who wouldn't get his ass back inside. Damn kids! Very nearly considered skipping NSS to nap and instead work there over the weekend, but my overbooked schedule prevented that option. Getting up early again in the morning to run, thus I will definitely be going to bed early tonight like a good kid.

Healthy Movement: Body feels good, but tired. Sat down a few times very briefly at TS (to file things) and didn't want to get up at all. Very tired. At NSS, all chairs occupied so I nearly built a standing station, then realized I could steal the rolling trunk and sit on that; I did, and enjoyed the sitting very much so. Tired.

Fun & Play: Super productive workday, by necessity: no time to fuck around on Fridays. Races are going well in WI for Hop's buddy. Or at least, last night went well. Still don't actually wish I were there.Got a text from my Lisa that she had a good run, on her first run in two months, yay for feeling good for all of us! I hope she gets back into a groove, because I definitely miss running with her.

Saw my Buddy, felt like it's been ages. (It has. A single day without her is too much.) I miss her and I just had to hug her because I am feeling so super lovey toward all of my people lately, and she is one of my tip top favorites, and sometimes she reads this so I hope she sees that. (Mwah!)

I don't know why my brain is so exhausted by Friday afternoon, but it is, and especially today. I was happy to have NSS to myself after 3 or so, I craved the silence for once. Brain was very tired. Have I mentioned I am tired today? At least my attitude is fine, feeling good about my life. Especially my people; do you know how perfectly awesome my friends are? If you're one of them, then you do.

Quiet evening at home. Eat all the carbs, read a book, laugh at the silly pooches, snuggle with the soft kittehs.

Thursday, September 11

Nutrition: Starving today; apparently my appetite is back, but with a vengeance, sheesh. I am in desperate need of time to food-prep, or else my case of tuna to show up (hurry, Amazon!), because jerky for lunch is not acceptable. It's fucking delicious, but so not affordable. I've been really dumb about food spending, need to rein that shit in. I could make a lot of my snacks for a hell of a lot cheaper, just need to make the time.
  • 6a-1 egg, mustard, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w CM
  • 945-Larabar
  • 11-Renola
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-S&H jerky, banana
  • 330-Paleo bar
  • (6-1-hour run)
  • 730-salad w avocado, 2 toast
  • calories 2175: p 525, c 850, f 800
Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 930p-545a, 86% quality. Was basically awake 5a onward. Reliving the weekend, trying to cement all those perfect moments into my memory.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling good. Brain was feeling awesome enough to request heavier weight TGUs in my session, after meekly sticking with the safe light 16kg for weeks now. The actual convo after the first rep with 16kg:
Dustin: So what do you want to do?
Oh yeah, and besides the happier TGUs, there was that little bitty PR in my ring pull-ups!
FIFTEEN straight ring pulls! (Or, as my brain keeps stating it: fif-fuckin-teen!)
I wish Dustin had been watching to audit that number because frankly I don't even know how I did it. They just flew up. I say GODDAMN, that made me happy! Next, must hit 15 on the NG bar, and then...well...twenty, obviously. Never satisfied.

Eve run with Monica was amazingly good, and an hour long without effort. It was the kind of good that got me into running to a start with. Please stay, wonderful feeling! Please please please!

Fun & Play: Cool morning weather. Productive work day. Fabulous session. All the plans with all the running buddies. A fantastic run, doesn't get better than enjoying the movement.

Hubs heading out on a well-deserved vacation - just wish I were going with. Brian had better feel so fucking special that I traded it for last weekend. But honestly: it was worth it, the Superior 100 was much more fun than the Legendary 100 has been in the past many years. For someone who doesn't drink, can't eat any of the group food, hasn't watched the races at all this year, has very little in common with the rest of the group, and likes to go to bed by 9pm & get up at's not all that fun anymore. There's maybe a single mile of trails nearby, and zero squat racks or pull-up bars! And I can hole up with a book in the peace & quiet at home, and that will be more restful than CLS would've been anyway. But hey, I'm not holing up at all! Running with all my besties (YAY), and then also cleaning my entire house (BOO), so that they can come over next weekend (YAY) for a bonfire (EXTRA YAY).

Wednesday, September 10

Nutrition: I honestly missed having Brussels sprouts at breakfast. I have turned into THAT asshole.
  • 515a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, coffee w coconut milk
  • 815-5 Reese's Pieces, coffee
  • 945-Larabar
  • (1145-30min run)
  • 1230p-yam chili, few rice crackers, applesauce
  • 315-Renola
  • (545-30min yoga)
  • 7-salad w avocado, 2 toast, pork jerky 
  • calories 2150: p 600, c 825, f 725

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 89% quality. In a touch late since I was single-parenting the dogs for the night, hubs off trucking once again. (Better get used to it, pumping season is around the corner.) Alarm woke me and I was not happy with it. Think I could have rocked another hour thanks to the dark & cold. Is there any better time to sleep than in the fall?

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty great, surprisingly. Class warm-up felt so good that I wanted desperately to join in. Stayed smart & did my shoulder stretches/holds per Dustin's instructions yesterday, plus a spell of third-world squat sitting. Really don't know why that position feels so good, but it sure does. Haven't done my PT exercises since Thursday, BAD SABRINA. Did PT after my lunch run and remembered why I hate it: 10 minutes that feel like I'm accomplishing nothing at all, and yes I know that's not true. The run itself was lovely, it was a nice change to be EXCITED TO RUN, it has been a long time. Hooray, Fall! And also thanks to the Superior 100; it certainly has left me more excited about running. Had yoga club, which didn't do much for the body, stretches without a warm-up is pointless to me, but it was hilarious fun for the brain. We are fully ruined for live yoga classes, what with our giggling and swearing and smart-assery.

Fun & Play: Super fun class today; don't know why, but I enjoyed the hell out of it. Bonus Excel chat with Dustin on a file I made him. Trail-running excitement for the upcoming weekend, will have more than one running buddy! 50k logistics with Monica. Emailed an entire team (not mine) welcoming them to sitting near us, because work really is more fun having lively bunches of peeps nearby. Yoga.

Reading Brian's Superior 100 write-up, experiencing all those emotions again. I wanted to call him up and be like, "YEAH, and when you sat down, I almost dragged your ass out of that chair before it landed!" or "When you dropped those water bottles I wanted to pick them up & shove them down your throat, you MUST TAKE THEM!" and the like. Just live it all again, get all 6 of us back together filling in the blanks that the others missed. GAWD that was the best weekend ever.

Nature: I want to hit the woods at night again, for real. It was too awesome. Granted, I'm not going to get a view like I did on the SHT, nor have all the adrenaline of race day pace day, but the darkness brought so much extra peace & serenity into the woods! I must taste it again, and soon. What has become of me, the timid rabbit?

Stress Management: A bunch of freshly-minted-trail-loving ROUSers are babbling on about doing the Spring Superior 50k in May. I'm feeling super totally caught up in the trail-running excitement and thinking ME TOO, because 50k is a piece of cake because it's trails and trails are always so much fun!

But, please, someone remind me at registration time: tax season, tax season, tax season! Do. Not. Sign. Up. I can crew for them, I can work an aid station, whatever; I can find a way to be in the atmosphere, but I must NOT run it. Training for it, while a million times more fun than Boston training, is something I should not do. I will certainly start running trails again as soon as spring opens them up, but I don't need the pressure of 31 miles looming over that fresh spring lovefest. I need to love my runs, I will not survive if I return to dreading them. 

Based on my recent past, I've firmly decided that my winter needs to be a serious deload from running, both for my body & my sanity, with a focus on lifting instead. You may see me type this daily until I'm convinced. Someone, please take the responsibility to remind me of this. Joy, I nominate you to be my conscience on this one: don't let my beloved well-meaning running friends talk me into doing something so foolish!

Tuesday, September 9

Nutrition: Doubling down on coconut to make up for lost nut calories. A rather delicious idea! Not going to be enough, though, as I need like 400 calories replaced, and I'm not going to down a can of coconut milk a day. And spoonsful of coconut butter, while fucking delicious, lead to overeating VERY easily. It's goddamn amazing, you know.

Would be cheaper than a bag of pork jerky, though. Protein shakes are a decent idea, not that expensive, but I don't want to overdo the whey, nor peas (legumes), certainly want zero soy, and egg white protein is usually just fucking gross. Maybe I should do a greens shake with liquid egg whites. But I can't run a blender in the morning; the hubs is still sleeping when I leave, much less when I'm breakfasting. This is one reason I've always avoided shakes: no good time to have them. But mostly because it starts to lead me back to disordered eating and calorie cutting and starvation; eating real food is just a better smarter safer option for my health & sanity. Or at least, has been in the past. Maybe I'm smarter now. (Wishful thinking!)

Gawd, I lead SUCH a difficult life. Poor little me and my tiny challenges. This is why no one should read this claptrap nonsense. I should add a caution in the header: reading my brain vomit is likely to make you puke as well!

  • 545a-2 eggs, bacon, 2 toast, apple w/ SB, coffee w/ CM
  • 815-coffee w/ CM
  • 9-moar coffee (oops)
  • 1115-half Kind bar
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-half Daiya pizza, half Kind bar, Dr Pepper-flavored bootch, holy shit!
  • 4-coconut butter
  • 630-salad w half avocado, 2 toast
  • calories 2175: p 175, c 1150, f 875

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 930p-530a, 82% quality. Up too late because I am still trying to catch up on everyone else's lives on FB. Happily, I also got smart enough to start culling off people who never post anything worthwhile. Erase some clutter. Anyway, woke naturally, but could have snuggled back down in, if not for Hank. Had a long, slow breakfast to make up for it.

Healthy Movement: Body feels pretty good. Session went well, deload & thus easy peasy boring nonsense; pull-ups are not coming back as quickly as I'd like, but a decent showing, anyway. 

Fun & Play: Plotting out some details around my own upcoming ultra. Feels like I should actually call it an "ultra" after seeing so many badasses doing 3x my! Anyway, Amy can't come. (Boo, hiss!) May have to depend on drop bags unless Monica's hubs is going to traipse around crewing, but I'm not even sure he's going. Chatted with Monica about weekend run plans.

I got this from Mike today. Made my day! Damn, I love when people GET me. And I can't wait to pass it along to someone else.

A compliment PLUS a double-swear? Yes, please!!

Stress Management: Heard from Mary: she got a job! Para at the school. Low pay and no benefits, but the benefits of getting to spend more time with her kiddos, and have their schedule: nearly priceless. So very, very happy for her. I hope this layoff really does turn out to be the best thing that could've happened to her, to all of us, really & truly. I want roses to bloom from this bullshit, desperately so. All of this pain for everyone has GOT to have a payoff, right? All three of my direct reports are now re-employed. Relief.

Temperance: Today a coworker complimented me rather profusely on my hair. It is pretty awesome, I know this. And I can say that easily because, in my weird brain, my hair isn't ME. It's inherited from my papa, it's nothing to do with something I did: I didn't earn it. So why, I pondered afterward, do I identify 100% with my skin? Why do I hate my face so fiercely when it's full of breakouts? If my hair isn't me, then is my skin me? Must learn from this random thought. It seems wise. Don't let it go.